MDLee

HEY ALL! UPDATE: They're admitting me to the PhD program. WITH FUNDING! so...I guess this isn't such a hard choice after all Who said a little optimism didn't take you places? Thanks everyone for all of the support you've all given me over the last two months--I'd never have made it without you!

After many months of agony I finally received ONE acceptance (yay!). Of course, it is unfunded... so the question is... is it worth it to try to get the student loan debt and pray for funding next year? Or am I better off to wait and try my hand at this whole thing again next time?

My life is now complete.

What's really bad is that I thought this commentary was hilarious. The application process is winning alright. I'm losing my mind.

Just tell em its that or a Bull Mastiff. You'll win

Couldn't get a student loan anyway.

...no. I'm just chatty.

HERE,HERE! That is exactly the point we should all take away from this experience, I think.

...I'm confused.

Why the eye roll?

So you re-assess...re-evaluate. Maybe the thing you're supposed to be doing is closer to home?

I am slowly beginning to realize that everything ends up falling into the place that its supposed to. Yes--maybe I put out ten apps and yes, maybe they all came back rejected (I've got two out, so I'm working on premonitions at this point) but maybe that's where I was supposed to be. You know? How much of your identity has been wrapped up in your scholastic achievement? Why can't we conceive of a life outside of school? I think that the world has some incredible horizons at this point...horizons that I'm very willing to explore. I'm almost content to do so at this point. Excited even. Here's hoping everyone ends this process with inner peace.

He kissed me. Forgot grad school.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm love those history flavored nerd. Although. They're terrible for you. They're full of preservatives.

Dear whoever sent this double lame email making us all think I was admitted to your stupid program. GOTOHELL. Thank you. One=Frustrated=Grad=Student. ...On that note: My department chair said he doesn't think I have a strong shot at U-SC OR Iowa. "Its just a bad year" He said. Then he told me that perhaps I should apply with UNLV next year. er...I thought that was academic incest and you guys were telling me not to? This is a bad sign for me, I think.

It has been my experience that nerds can cross disciplines to find love. I mean....this guy is more poli-sci and military strategy. I'm more history and human rights. I have also been known to date chemists. It could work for you--I wholly approve of the strategy.

So, I sent an email to U-SC last week inquiring about my status. I got a response in the email box today: "Hello, Please contact the department regarding acceptance information. thank you." And it listed the department phone number. I called...and I ended up in this voicemail box that said, "The applications are currently under review. Thank you." HUH?! Then I re-read it. And realized. It wasn't MY acceptance information that I was told to contact about. It was acceptance information in general. LAME. :roll: :roll: :roll:

I think that Stolichnaya is an excellent plan B, personally. It happens to be mine

Massive congratulatory applause for that second one. Awesome news!

Wow...you guys are so right. I'm gonna see how this one plays out. Who knows...it could be fun

Now this...might just be an experiment worth pursuing.

I love you Riss I thought for sure I'd get a bunch of people being like "WHAT THE HECK?" about all of this. Its nothing really, yet...I mean, it could go nowhere. But it could go somewhere. And I'm getting tempted to see where that somewhere is. He's really an interesting guy. Admits to being a jerk on occasion. Takes very little crap. But has been unusually present for my mental breakdowns over the last few weeks. He's the one I was talking about when I said that I had a quiet constant in my life who was willing to quietly take it all and not judge me for my craziness in this process. sigh. Now I'm grinning again. dangit.

No, no...Nerd love is EXACTLY what it is. But I have always considered these guys to be a myth like unicorns or the pot o' gold at the end of the rainbow..chasing weather patterns won't get you any closer, right? So how does this guy sneak in the side door? AND WHY NOW ?! Especially when I wasn't looking, I wasn't interested, I wasn't even paying attention. Then a few days ago we were in the GA office at the computer pod and I was like, "I should go back to my desk and get some work done" and he was like "I think you and your beautiful blue eyes should stay right where you are." ...and when I did a double take and said, "Huh?" he turned. Blinked. and said, "You heard me." Then went back to his work as easy as you please. Now I'm sitting here smitten and shaking my fists at the sky. Never when you want it....sheesh. How does one say, "Ok...endangered species. I just found one. Naw, I think I'll not bother to give it a shot." sheesh, again.

You guys are hilarious. Now you understand my dilemma!! Every time I go on a date and dare to cautiously go into my research as a topic...the guy fades out and never re enters the conversation. This guy not only gets it, he's listening, remembers it, and makes academic jokes about some of the terms that I have to remember. ACADEMIC JOKES!!! That are FUNNY! Forget the PhD. Sign me up for the MrS program, LoL! Ok--maybe not. But is it okay to have both? Sheesh. :roll:

I prefer the ones that you force to reject you over the phone..."err...I...Well....Unfortunately we...can't extend...admission to you at...this time...errrr..." LoL! It kind of makes the suffering worth it to torture them back a little.