Increasingly Moody

[joops]

if I see another BEEEP-ing person asking about their chances with their perfect scores I just might die. Seriously? WTF do you think your chances are? Leave us middle class average GPA or Awesome in one area, but over compensating for some deficiencies in another area alone.

I have probably gotten a million times worse since this process, I recently signed up for a gmail email account so I could see (on the tab) when a new email arrives and it kind of shows up/flashes upon arrival. Pathetic, probably, but I want to be able to get my brain back the very second I hear something.

Not pathetic at all! Might I suggest filtering facebook messages/bank statements/whatever emails? You can have it so they are marked as read upon their arrival. This will minimize, though not totally diminish, the chances of false alarms.

[MoJingly]

I have found that I have absolutely ZERO patience.

[space-cat]

I realized 2 years ago that my job it is in no way how I want to spend my future and find that things which used to be slightly annoying now seem like insurmountable tasks I don't have the patience to deal with. however, since my 1 acceptance I have become *slightly* better, and instead try to spend my energy holding back from telling off all of my obnoxious coworkers

Word. It helps to remind myself that blowing stuff off because I'll be a grad student in another state in seven months isn't fair to my coworkers...

[Zouzax]

i have zero patience as well; I have been posting abnormally angry status updates on facebook (to the point where family & friends are noticing and asking if everythings alright), and yes, those 'perfect' posts do NOT help my anxiety at all.

On Monday, AOL had a one day glitch where no one was getting their emails - I almost organized a mutiny.

By the way, its 1:20 am here and I'm still obsessively checking my email, even though I shouldn't hear anything until February. sigh.

[lechatgris]

I have found that I have absolutely ZERO patience.

I've never had any patience, although I'm also becoming more and more reclusive. The results page owns my soul.

Also, I'm spending my afternoon baking cookies. For my dog.

Yes, I'm just that cool.

[lab ratta-tat-tat]

@lechatgris

I got a dog cooking book for christmas.... needless to say I have been baking dog treats and preparing special meals for my 2 coonhounds.

i also agree that the result page owns my soul. i also have become a recluse and just want to hear something before I move on with the next part of my life. Grrrrr!!!

[sputnik]

I heard about a kid on our floor running to every office shouting that he got accepted and funded somewhere. Given the mood, I'm surprised he didn't take a punch to the face.

[sputnik]

<br />. The results page owns my soul.<br /><br />Also, I'm spending my afternoon baking cookies. <br />

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This is hilarious. Well said!

[lab ratta-tat-tat]

ugghhhhhh

Congrats to him... for being a JERK!

Just kidding, good for him but I can see how that would get annoying to people who are actually working.

[KRC]

My worst nightmare:

Just sent two emails from my work account to the account I applied with (Gmail). The first one went through instantly. The second did not. I resent the second ... twice... still nothing.

Only under these circumstances would I see this as a crime punishable by death.

[MicrobeGirlie13]

I find that I've been okay, except that now everyone I know is asking me a million times a day. My mom called me at the crack of dawn today to ask if I had heard. "Um...no...I just woke up. And I don't have any news right this second that I didn't have last night when you asked."

I've been going to the gym every morning, and have kept my days packed full of things to do at work and after work. And yesterday I was home sick, and spent all day sleeping, so definitely didn't have to think. But my stress level is slowly climbing as each day passes with no news. *sigh* Good luck to us all! (and to the poor people who have to deal with our stressed-moody 'tudes)

[neshmi]

Things have gotten worse for me after I got contact from my POI. Now I am just waiting to get the flight out to the school coordinated and this waiting is even worse than not knowing anything. Now rather than just waiting for something, its like they've dropped a sealed envelop in my lap but refuse to let me open it until they decide I can know something... but they won't tell me when that is! ARGH!

*sigh*

[OR_Dan]

Yeah. My moodiness is reaching all time highs now. People from my program at school are starting to get acceptances. Granted, I didn't apply to any of the schools they have, but it's pissing me off. I have yet to hear a damn thing from anyone. I'd almost take a rejection just to hear something!

Plus, I'm getting sick of reading posts on the board that go something like, "Hi Everyone! I am perfect in every way! I have a perfect GPA and a perfect GRE and the perfect professor at the perfect uni is perfectly in love with me! And even though I'm so perfectly perfect, I'm apparently not smart enough to know my chances, so I'll ask you all, 'What are my chances?'"

Sod off! Those are your chances! Now stop reminding the rest of us how mediocre we are you perfect ass!

(That's why I posted this is the moody thread). I've gotten worse.

WOW, I remember when I first checked out this thread it was justa casual remarks about being cranky, now it looks like we're wayyyy past a lot of people's boiling points. It really shows that we are all getting more anxious everyday.

Well, let's just hope all this anguish turns out to be worthwhile. Good luck to us all.

[jennbotts]

Increasingly moody is right.

I live with my boyfriend. We're in the same field and are both applying for MAs. There's a limited number of schools for this type of stuff, and we ended up applying to several of the same schools. I'm sure you can see where this might be going

Last week he received a phone call from his #1 choice (my #2 school) offering him admission .... we were both freaking thrilled, giddy, much jumping up and down and a celebratory drink or two. Now that the giddiness has passed a little, I'm getting really antsy. His offer of admission came REALLY early - we weren't expecting to hear anything for weeks. Somehow, despite knowing that his admission was unseasonably early and I shouldn't count myself out of the running yet, his offer of admission is making waiting around for a decision regarding my application worse because I know for sure now they've begun sorting the applicants. I'm beyond thrilled for him, but I'm on edge now worse than I ever was before.

The phone rang this afternoon and I instantly broke out in a cold sweat. (It was a telemarketer). I got an email from School #2 that was totally unrelated to grad apps, and my first thought was "that's just cruel."

[green8715]

The phone rang this afternoon and I instantly broke out in a cold sweat. (It was a telemarketer). I got an email from School #2 that was totally unrelated to grad apps, and my first thought was "that's just cruel."

Every week it seems I get an email from 1 school I applied to from one of the admissions coordinators just updating us that she will be "out of the office on...". Which is very nice of her to keep us updated but crushes my rising hopes every time I click to read the email

[awvish]

This is sort of weird...but...

I find that I'm a lot more tightly wound than usual, but rather than coming out as being angrier or more short-tempered than normal...I have trouble focusing. It's like I have subject-specific ADD. A minute on the topic of anything but admissions, interviews, and obsessing about my chances and tactics and so forth, and I'm suddenly distracted. By anything. My right heel, the pattern of shadows on the wall, the birds outside, what kind of food I had for breakfast. It isn't even the thought of admissions...I just can't focus on anything very well.

This would be a problem if my current job required long thinking periods.

[KRC]

After three years of having my current cell phone number, I got my first spam phone call from an actual 10-digit phone number today.

I'm getting to the point now where freaking out/getting the rage is almost hard to muster.

[howlinforever]

The bad part is when you know that your dream school is having interviews in about 2 weeks and you still haven't got an invite. I find myself crying at random times when I look at my calendar. I feel so pitiful these days!!! This application season can't come to an end soon enough!!!

[Zouzax]

The bad part is when you know that your dream school is having interviews in about 2 weeks and you still haven't got an invite. I find myself crying at random times when I look at my calendar. I feel so pitiful these days!!! This application season can't come to an end soon enough!!!

Im going through the same thing. Schools I applied to are starting to have interviews and I still havent heard a THING. I have now started going over every detail of my application in my head and thinking about all the things I should've changed. When I'm not doing that, I'm questioning my life decisions. UGH.

[shepardn7]

The phone rang this afternoon and I instantly broke out in a cold sweat. (It was a telemarketer).

So much hate for telemarketers when you're hoping beyond hope for a phone call. The phone rings and you're hoping it's surprise good news, though you'd settle for a friend or a parent, maybe even tolerate a political campaigner, and instead it's an blasted telemarketer who forces you to get rude or hang up mid-sentence because he or she won't allow you to just politely end the conversation. It's just so frustrating because it's already a forceable intrusion on your time and person.

Good luck to you--hope everything works out with the dual applying and stuff!

[Zouzax]

has anyone else been getting an inordinate amount of emails from the Democratic Congressional Campaign Committee?? How annoying are those?? The other day, I heard my email "ping" and I ran over to check who it was from. I didn't have my contacts in so all I could see was a long name as the sender. My heart stopped, thinking it was from a university. Of course, once I could see properly I realized it was a spam email from "President Obama". Argh!!!!

Edited February 1, 2011 by Zouzax

[jennbotts]

I have now started going over every detail of my application in my head and thinking about all the things I should've changed.

Me too!! I was on the bus to school this morning and found myself critiquing every bit of my application, especially my SOP. I pretty much re-wrote the whole thing in my head on the way to school, and then got really down on myself for the version that I turned in, which now in my sea of self-doubt, I think is weak and without sufficient direction. "If-only-itis" is a hard illness to shake. I hope you hear some good news soon, Zouzax!

So much hate for telemarketers when you're hoping beyond hope for a phone call. The phone rings and you're hoping it's surprise good news, though you'd settle for a friend or a parent, maybe even tolerate a political campaigner, and instead it's an blasted telemarketer who forces you to get rude or hang up mid-sentence because he or she won't allow you to just politely end the conversation. It's just so frustrating because it's already a forceable intrusion on your time and person.

Good luck to you--hope everything works out with the dual applying and stuff!

Haha, this is EXACTLY how I felt. Thank you for the good wishes sarandipidy and all the best to you too!

[lab ratta-tat-tat]

So I found out through the grapevine I was rejected from my dream program. They are having interviews in 2 weeks and unfortunately I am not one of the applicants.

When I found this out yesterday, I was sad, I felt I was a great candidate- lots of research experience, publications, blah blah blah. Oddly enough (and the point of my post) I cannot explain to you the joy and the sense of relief I felt once I realized it was all over now. I can move on to my plan B (permanent scientist) and make a hell of a lot more money. I have been offerred a job through one of my POI's who was THRILLED i did not get into grad school because they want a straight up scientist and not a grad student who is taking classes.......

I hope this is inspiring or helpful to some people who see no light at the end of the tunnel. I promised I would cry myself to weeks if I didn't get in but even if I didn't have this job offer (which I only found out about like 3 mins ago) I woke up this morning in a hell of a better mood.

SO good luck to waiting and hang tight!

Edited February 1, 2011 by lab ratta-tat-tat

[Zouzax]

So I found out through the grapevine I was rejected from my dream program. They are having interviews in 2 weeks and unfortunately I am not one of the applicants.

When I found this out yesterday, I was sad, I felt I was a great candidate- lots of research experience, publications, blah blah blah. Oddly enough (and the point of my post) I cannot explain to you the joy and the sense of relief I felt once I realized it was all over now. I can move on to my plan B (permanent scientist) and make a hell of a lot more money. I have been offerred a job through one of my POI's who was THRILLED i did not get into grad school because they want a straight up scientist and not a grad student who is taking classes.......

I hope this is inspiring or helpful to some people who see no light at the end of the tunnel. I promised I would cry myself to weeks if I didn't get in but even if I didn't have this job offer (which I only found out about like 3 mins ago) I woke up this morning in a hell of a better mood.

SO good luck to waiting and hang tight!

First off, congrats on landing an amazing job!

Your story was inspiring. I truly feel like things happen for a reason, and yours is a perfect example. It's funny that you wrote this, because the past few days I've been seriously putting together a plan B ... and truth is, the plan B is ... awesome. It would involve my moving to a country Ive been wanting to live in for a very long time.

I put a lot of work into the Ph.d apps, and at this point I feel like if I'm meant to go I'll be accepted. Or, if I'm meant to take the leap and continue my European adventure, I won't be accepted. Call me naive but it helps alleviate the stress a little bit.

[lab ratta-tat-tat]

I have been secretly excited about my plan b for a while. The more and more I talked about it with my significant other and family, the more excited I got. So I am glad my "plan B" has become my "plan A" and is going to be a positive thing. I think it can be that way for anyone