CQE Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 (edited) Is anyone else going through moments of confidence and then extreme self doubt? I just want to get this over with. HGSE just tell me where I stand!! ....it will probably be the last school I hear from and it's driving me crazy. For sure. Usually, I'm pretty confident, but occasionally I'll think to myself: "Ugh...I might not get in." But, if I were rejected, then, at the end of the day, I know I'd use it for motivation to be a better applicant for doctoral programs down the line. Additionally, I'd avoid beating myself up about it; instead, I'd view HGSE passing me up as a mistake on their end - a mistake that I'd want to later make apparent to them. For me, it's easier to motivate myself by looking at it in that light rather than taking the "awww, shucks - I wasn't good enough" mentality. It may appear to be arrogant, but it's what I'd force myself to believe to remain confident and stay motivated. Thankfully, knowing that I'll feel that way is what gives me peace of mind. It still doesn't change the fact that I want this really badly, though. Edited February 8, 2013 by CQE merrysoprano 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrysoprano Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 Perfectly put, CQE! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
m26 Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 Is anyone else going through moments of confidence and then extreme self doubt? I just want to get this over with. HGSE just tell me where I stand!! ....it will probably be the last school I hear from and it's driving me crazy. I always feel vaguely optimistic, but when I get really enthusiastic about the program is when my mind goes into full-on panic mode haha. I, for one, was completely calm and reasonable and rational about this whole process until February, and now I'm rapidly becoming one of those high-strung prospies. Gah! I called admissions the other day, and they said I can send an updated resume to replace my old one, and they'll switch it if I'm not under review yet. I made the semifinals at Penn-Milken, which doesn't mean much but I'm tempted to put it on there and re-submit because my resume is so thin on directly education-y things. Any thoughts? merrysoprano 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EdYouKateOr Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 (edited) Is anyone else going through moments of confidence and then extreme self doubt?. That describes me hour by hour! Edited February 8, 2013 by EdYouKateOr Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrysoprano Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 The professors in my prospective program were pretty warm to lots of different backgrounds though. I remember the director telling me about a business student coming to the Arts in Education program, which is counter-intuitive. I think that everyone's coming from something very different and want very different things out of the program, so I wouldn't worry, at least, about having a thin resume education-wise. I'm sure your experience informs your desire to get into Ed in some awesome way! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DanMcD Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 So, since I've seen it discussed, I know in the past admissions decisions have come out the Tuesday of the first full week of March (in 2013 that's the 5th). I don't know if that'll be accurate this year since I imagine the timeline is only slightly similar- plus with this snow storm who knows how it has been effected. Also as an FYI- it's usually come later than expected (last year I think I got my email at like 6 or 7- past expected business/email hours) That being said try and avoid staying up all night refreshing your email. Each time it doesn't show up is just slightly more disappointing to see you won't know yet! Plus why add that extra stress? Save it all for when the e-mail actually shows up. Makes it much more bearable. Good luck again to everyone! Hope to see some of you at open house events later in the spring! RandiZ, emg28 and Loseric 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HigherEd2013 Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 So, since I've seen it discussed, I know in the past admissions decisions have come out the Tuesday of the first full week of March (in 2013 that's the 5th). I don't know if that'll be accurate this year since I imagine the timeline is only slightly similar- plus with this snow storm who knows how it has been effected. Also as an FYI- it's usually come later than expected (last year I think I got my email at like 6 or 7- past expected business/email hours) That being said try and avoid staying up all night refreshing your email. Each time it doesn't show up is just slightly more disappointing to see you won't know yet! Plus why add that extra stress? Save it all for when the e-mail actually shows up. Makes it much more bearable. Good luck again to everyone! Hope to see some of you at open house events later in the spring! Great advice! Thank you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loseric Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 Is anyone else going through moments of confidence and then extreme self doubt? I just want to get this over with. HGSE just tell me where I stand!! ....it will probably be the last school I hear from and it's driving me crazy. This describes me to a T! Sometimes I've very positive (thinking about my other acceptances and being reassured that I probably am a decent candidate) and other times I'm completely filled with doubt about getting in. So, since I've seen it discussed, I know in the past admissions decisions have come out the Tuesday of the first full week of March (in 2013 that's the 5th). I don't know if that'll be accurate this year since I imagine the timeline is only slightly similar- plus with this snow storm who knows how it has been effected. Also as an FYI- it's usually come later than expected (last year I think I got my email at like 6 or 7- past expected business/email hours) That being said try and avoid staying up all night refreshing your email. Each time it doesn't show up is just slightly more disappointing to see you won't know yet! Plus why add that extra stress? Save it all for when the e-mail actually shows up. Makes it much more bearable. Good luck again to everyone! Hope to see some of you at open house events later in the spring! Thanks for the detailed info, Dan. That really narrows it down, which helps this nervous one a lot. Fingers crossed that they follow the pattern this year, too! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ASzofer Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 Is anyone else going through moments of confidence and then extreme self doubt? I just want to get this over with. HGSE just tell me where I stand!! ....it will probably be the last school I hear from and it's driving me crazy. Oh the self doubt!!! I sent all of my applications out very early in December so I've had plenty of time to convince myself I wasn't getting in anywhere. We all sent in the best application we could produce so that's really all we could do, right? I've been dreaming about Harvard since I was 12 and this was the first time I felt qualified enough to even send an application out there. Anyone else sort of miss the days of big envelope vs. small one? I saw my Vanderbilt acceptance email while chatting about something totally mindless on FB. Not quite the same as coming home to a big envelope. Although I do remember getting accepted to Fordham for undergrad with a small envelope. But still, it would be pretty cool to walk into my vestibule and see an envelope from Harvard that wouldn't fit in my mailbox!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
emg28 Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 Oh the self doubt!!! I sent all of my applications out very early in December so I've had plenty of time to convince myself I wasn't getting in anywhere. We all sent in the best application we could produce so that's really all we could do, right? I've been dreaming about Harvard since I was 12 and this was the first time I felt qualified enough to even send an application out there. Anyone else sort of miss the days of big envelope vs. small one? I saw my Vanderbilt acceptance email while chatting about something totally mindless on FB. Not quite the same as coming home to a big envelope. Although I do remember getting accepted to Fordham for undergrad with a small envelope. But still, it would be pretty cool to walk into my vestibule and see an envelope from Harvard that wouldn't fit in my mailbox!! Yesssss...I want to feel and see the envelope. In the back of my mind, some of these acceptances just don't feel 'real'. I need to run my hands over the ink and seals. Secretly, I'm desperately waiting for mail from these schools to arrive one of these days... Sigh. At least I can dream about it lol. Why did they have to go paperless for acceptances??! ASzofer 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CQE Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 Yesssss...I want to feel and see the envelope. In the back of my mind, some of these acceptances just don't feel 'real'. I need to run my hands over the ink and seals. Secretly, I'm desperately waiting for mail from these schools to arrive one of these days... Sigh. At least I can dream about it lol. Why did they have to go paperless for acceptances??! I know, right?! I got my acceptance email from Penn and was just eager to get my actual letter in the mail. After waiting for about two months, I was like, OK, I'm going to just ask about it (as a secondary question, of course, within my email - LOL. I didn't want to look like I was worrying about something that might seem petty to them). Alas, I was informed that all we were getting was the online acceptance "letter". Oh well. I'm just going to print it off on some nice, white matte paper. LMAO Gotta make due somehow! ASzofer 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
emg28 Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 I know, right?! I got my acceptance email from Penn and was just eager to get my actual letter in the mail. After waiting for about two months, I was like, OK, I'm going to just ask about it (as a secondary question, of course, within my email - LOL. I didn't want to look like I was worrying about something that might seem petty to them). Alas, I was informed that all we were getting was the online acceptance "letter". Oh well. I'm just going to print it off on some nice, white matte paper. LMAO Gotta make due somehow! LMAO...that's a great idea. I didn't want to email them, thinking they might see me as foolish because I don't get how things in "grad school" are done. A friend of mine mentioned she received packages from schools she had been admitted to. Since I haven't received anything close to a letter much less a package, I'm assuming there's packages students receive from programs they're visiting. Does anyone know about these? Or heard about them? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ASzofer Posted February 9, 2013 Share Posted February 9, 2013 LMAO...that's a great idea. I didn't want to email them, thinking they might see me as foolish because I don't get how things in "grad school" are done. A friend of mine mentioned she received packages from schools she had been admitted to. Since I haven't received anything close to a letter much less a package, I'm assuming there's packages students receive from programs they're visiting. Does anyone know about these? Or heard about them? I think different schools just do things differently. I got the "big envelope" from Loyola Chicago. I requested materials from HSGE and got some of those in envelopes back in October. But I'm noticing on the results page that most people are getting accepted to their programs via email. It took me a while to even believe Vanderbilt after I saw the email. I kept thinking, what if they just sent this accidentally? Then I started getting a lot more emails. Haha. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrysoprano Posted February 10, 2013 Share Posted February 10, 2013 I know. I'm so scared I will log on to see an acceptance and, half an hour later, a rejection. Computer errors or something. Eeeeeeep! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loseric Posted February 11, 2013 Share Posted February 11, 2013 I thought I was the only one who didn't like the whole email/online notifications thing! I miss the days of the thin/thick envelope and knowing exactly what you were getting into, but I was afraid of posting and embarrassing myself. I've been accepted to three schools so far, and only received a "big envelope" from Northwestern - have to say it was exciting to get, though! Also not a big fan of the randomly timed email decisions. At least when one applies to college, you know the acceptances will come during a certain time/month. With grad school, you never know what you're going to get when you open your inbox! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
m26 Posted February 11, 2013 Share Posted February 11, 2013 Well if you get in it's better. Those thin envelopes are awful though. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CQE Posted February 11, 2013 Share Posted February 11, 2013 I thought I was the only one who didn't like the whole email/online notifications thing! I miss the days of the thin/thick envelope and knowing exactly what you were getting into, but I was afraid of posting and embarrassing myself. I've been accepted to three schools so far, and only received a "big envelope" from Northwestern - have to say it was exciting to get, though! Also not a big fan of the randomly timed email decisions. At least when one applies to college, you know the acceptances will come during a certain time/month. With grad school, you never know what you're going to get when you open your inbox! I know! I read my Penn acceptance email while I was at school, preparing for a presentation. It was so random. I mean, it was still a great moment, but not exactly what I envisioned. At least when I took the ACT and saw my score online I had to go through a couple of pages AND THEN scroll down to see my score. Personally, I like the suspense (well, only if it's positive news). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrysoprano Posted February 11, 2013 Share Posted February 11, 2013 I thought I was the only one who didn't like the whole email/online notifications thing! I miss the days of the thin/thick envelope and knowing exactly what you were getting into, but I was afraid of posting and embarrassing myself. I've been accepted to three schools so far, and only received a "big envelope" from Northwestern - have to say it was exciting to get, though! Also not a big fan of the randomly timed email decisions. At least when one applies to college, you know the acceptances will come during a certain time/month. With grad school, you never know what you're going to get when you open your inbox! My undergrad college didn't even send a big envelope. I was ED and all of us just got boring envelopes, and we all assumed it was a rejection... At least we have previous years to give us a guideline for HGSE's timeline. Give or take, anyway. Wonder how things are going up on Appian Way? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ASzofer Posted February 11, 2013 Share Posted February 11, 2013 I know! I read my Penn acceptance email while I was at school, preparing for a presentation. It was so random. I mean, it was still a great moment, but not exactly what I envisioned. At least when I took the ACT and saw my score online I had to go through a couple of pages AND THEN scroll down to see my score. Personally, I like the suspense (well, only if it's positive news). Yeah, every time I see an email, I think ahhh! Oh, never mind. Viagra ad. False alarm. That was so nerve-racking with the GRE too. That moment where you have to click "cancel or view scores" and you just think well there it is! My friend had a funny story about that actually because he and this other girl were leaving at the same time and he was pretty happy about his score and she was bawling and they were in the elevator together. He said, "I had no idea what to say/do. So awkward." merrysoprano 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CQE Posted February 12, 2013 Share Posted February 12, 2013 Yeah, every time I see an email, I think ahhh! Oh, never mind. Viagra ad. False alarm. That was so nerve-racking with the GRE too. That moment where you have to click "cancel or view scores" and you just think well there it is! My friend had a funny story about that actually because he and this other girl were leaving at the same time and he was pretty happy about his score and she was bawling and they were in the elevator together. He said, "I had no idea what to say/do. So awkward." ROFL @ Viagra ad. I remember back in 2007 and 2008 when awaiting my ACT scores. I, along with a bunch of others, were posting everyday on collegeconfidential.com in anticipation of our scores, similarly to the way all of us are doing here today with respect to our HGSE decision. Anyway, somebody ended up finding a "glitch" web URL that allowed us to see our score before the ACT site actually allowed us to. All you had to do was use the "glitch" link and replace this particular # with your identification/student #. The only catch was that you had to wait until your status switched to "Tested" after originally being displayed as "Registered." I wish there were such a link in this instance. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loseric Posted February 12, 2013 Share Posted February 12, 2013 The acceptances emails are nice and all (heh, why wouldn't they be?) but terribly anti-climactic, like you guys described above. The other thing that bugs is that we pay $50+ in application fees to these schools and they can't even shell out .42 (or whatever the heck it is now!) for an acceptance or rejection letter? As a little birdie once said, "cheap cheap"! I did like receiving my GRE score immediately - way better than waiting a month or two for the SATs or APs! It was such a stressful day and test and I was just so happy to be done with it and know where I stood in terms of potentially retaking. I will admit that it took me quite awhile to work up the nerve to click the "view score" button, though! merrysoprano 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Coloradogirl Posted February 12, 2013 Author Share Posted February 12, 2013 I have been having lots of nightmares lately. I think from all of the anxiety of waiting. However, last night I had a dream about getting accepted to HGSE and I was in Cambridge at an open house event. It was wonderful! I woke up in such a good mood. Hang in there everyone! merrysoprano and Edugy 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrysoprano Posted February 12, 2013 Share Posted February 12, 2013 haha! I'm all jittery just thinking about it. Maybe I brewed my tea too strongly this morning, idk... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ASzofer Posted February 12, 2013 Share Posted February 12, 2013 haha! I'm all jittery just thinking about it. Maybe I brewed my tea too strongly this morning, idk... Haha I actually just noticed in your signature that you wrote "good thing I'm not going into math, huh?" next to your Q score. So funny. I had to re-teach myself every single math concept I have ever learned to take that stupid test, all the while thinking... good thing I am not going to need this at all ever and am spending months teaching myself how to determine the volume of geometric shapes. And I mean, I still ran out of time on every math section of the thing (and of course I got three of those instead of verbals). Every day is one day closer to knowing..... merrysoprano 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrysoprano Posted February 12, 2013 Share Posted February 12, 2013 (edited) Haha I actually just noticed in your signature that you wrote "good thing I'm not going into math, huh?" next to your Q score. So funny. I had to re-teach myself every single math concept I have ever learned to take that stupid test, all the while thinking... good thing I am not going to need this at all ever and am spending months teaching myself how to determine the volume of geometric shapes. And I mean, I still ran out of time on every math section of the thing (and of course I got three of those instead of verbals). Same boat as you! Ah well... we know our strengths! Edited February 12, 2013 by merrysoprano Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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