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  1. I wanted to share that my experience has been quite different, to give a little perspective to the other side. Most of my professors have been very pleasantly surprised when somebody has offered an opinion that contradicts that. Some even beam. One professor right out said they were thrilled a student "finally disagreed because that's what graduate school is supposed to help you do." Of course not all faculty like to be disagreed with, and they are in every school. I would suggest that *how* you disagree with someone in academia can make a big difference. Having a healthy discussion requires acknowledging that the person you are speaking with has a valid point, but, hey, maybe they missed this other side of the coin: would they consider this other perspective? I acknowledge the school you attend has a bunch of "arrogant morons" as you put it. But could it be the way you phrase your different opinions, maybe, just maybe, be putting them on the defensive of the 25 years they spent studying a particular thing? (I also acknowledge maybe my school is just more chilled) Cheers!
  2. First, congratulations on being admitted! Hair colour: I wouldn't dye your hair neutral. Makeup: I think it's fine to wear makeup as long as you don't overdo it, like you said. I wouldn't go with long fake eyelashes, extra fake long nails, mascara that runs if the day is too hot, blush that makes your skin too blotchy, etc. My rule of thumb is to wear what you would usually wear so you know you're comfortable with it. This is not the time to experiment with that free gift from Sephora. Clothes: I second what @TakeruK said about it depending on the field/school you're visiting. In most areas though, you would be pretty safe with a nice pair of jeans (no holes, no rips, no faded wash) and a nice top that doesn't hug too much. You mentioned you're busty. I am on the bustier side as well. I make sure to check that whatever top I am wearing doesn't "pop" when I bend and doesn't show sideways (carry safety pins!), and I also make sure that it doesn't give away anything on the rear end as well. For this reason, I personally steer clear of leggings (awkward panty lines--people know if you're wearing a thong or not) unless I'm wearing a skirt on top. Since your hair is bright, I would recommend a simple/plain blouse, shirt, or top. You want most of the attention to be your work. If it helps, I interviewed/visited with a simple white top (striped top for a different school), black pants, a scarf, no coat, and flat black shoes. Boring, but it worked. I wanted the profs to focus on my work, not what I wore.
  3. @.letmeinplz//, @TakeruK: Thank you for the suggestions. I will bring it up with my PI at the next meeting and see what she says!
  4. My research involves high-risk/vulnerable populations and I will be using video recordings. The ethics board has okayed video recording on the condition I guarantee there will be no audio captured because of the sensitive nature of the material that might be captured. Does anyone know of any video equipment I can buy that will guarantee that? The only way I know how right now is to mute the video recorder, but if I can buy a specific type of video recorder, I would much rather do that so I am not on any grey zone. I have to buy the video recorder anyway, so it's best I invest in the right one from the beginning. Thank you.
  5. @TakeruK, @Need Coffee in an IV, @fuzzylogician, and others who might be interested; So my grades were all released today and it turns out I didn't do as badly as I thought. I actually managed an A in all my classes. I just saw my graduate director this morning as he asked me to come by after the grades were released and his conclusion was that I didn't do as badly as I thought I did. He looked like he was trying so hard not to laugh while he talked to me this morning. I'm putting this here just in case somebody else is going to panic at the end of the year for similar reasons and wondered if there was going to be light at the end of the tunnel.
  6. @TakeruK, @Need Coffee in an IV, and @fuzzylogician, Thank you very much for your replies and words of support. You don't know how much this means to me. I've taken your advice and contacted my advisor at the disability resource centre at the university. The autoreply said she was away but she replied quite quickly (guess I sounded frantic enough!). I then contacted the department chair who also got back to me almost instantly. Both said to come and see them when term starts next week. Both had been, naturally, unaware I've been struggling from a disability- and health - related problem. The department chair also said he hadn't heard any complaints about my performance so far when they had their year - end review of all the students in my cohort so I'm not entirely doomed yet. He also mentioned students struggle in various capacities in the first term (usually from just the shock of transitioning from undergrad to Grad work) that faculty are used to seeing zombie students for the first couple of terms that they shrug it off as normal when students don't sleep or party too much. He's not sure yet what to do about all the different profs I have every day but I guess it's a good start. I also emailed my PI who also said to come chat - - she thought I was having trouble talking to her because I was nervous around her and just needed time to warm up (that's true, too; the stress of trying to figure out how to tell people without being labelled incompetent just made my problem so much worse) Thank you for your help. And happy new year.
  7. Hi. I have an invisible disability that involves a chronic health condition and a language processing disability. This recent fall, I started my graduate program at a new university. The university is an R1type university in Canada. Moving to a new place meant I had to adjust to a new health care system and wait in line for a new specialist, which I have yet to see till today. The wait line at student health services was also very long (7 weeks for a new appointment). Long story short, I have been struggling terribly. The stress of a new program and such has also left me sick most of the beginning of the first term. (Note that my disability allows me to have the standard accommodations in place like a tape recorder and extra time for exams, but it doesn't address the actual realities of my situation.) Every day in class and lab has been a terrible uphill climb for me. As I missed a bunch of work at the beginning, I spent an inordinate amount of time playing catch up. Of course by then, a lot of other work started to pile up and i was behind again necessitating more catch up. It was a vicious cycle. I felt like the stupidest person in class as I constantly feel like I'm in a fog from the lack of sleep, my speech is affected because of my disability, and I'm just stressed out, period. It doesn't help that my classes are taught by different professors every day. They call on me in class and I struggle to talk on the spot due to my language disability. I am terrified of approaching my profs because it feels like I will be telling the entire faculty (because classes are taught by a different prof every day) about my problem by the end of the year and I will be known as the stupid student. Being new, I also don't know whom I can trust yet. My new supervisor is great but she is only tangentially related to my program and I don't know if she would appreciate playing "mommy" to personal issues when I really should be able to figure this out. And so I spend so much time studying "extra" hoping that I will be "extra familiar" with the material that when they call on me I can by-pass my language disability and answer them (I can't but I try). That, of course, just means I spend more time stressing, less time sleeping, and digging myself deeper into the hole I'm already in. Has anyone been in this "I really should know how to deal with this better by now" situations? When I was an undergrad, I had the opportunity to get to know my profs and could explain my disability to them. The problem with the way my current doctoral program is structured just makes this so much more difficult. Also I am worried how performing badly so early on in the program is gonna affect my chances of applying for fellowships? (I have a very strong undergraduate GPA and publications) Will the department think they made a mistake admitting me? I will be applying for fellowships in the summer and will have to impress my department before I can get to the university competition. How will a bad first term affect me? And if you're wondering, yes, I'm terribly tired from this horrible term and just overwhelmingly stressed and sleep-deprived. Thank you. Edit: I know this post falls under several sections such as "The bank" and "Coursework, advising, and exams." Apologies if this should have gone there instead!
  8. You could tactfully ask if the program has funds. Don't be rude or pushy. Just enquire respectfully. I did for the programs that interviewed me. Phrase it such that you want to know if there is funding you can "apply" for and you understand if there is none. All were very understanding when I asked. I asked at both schools and one school said when the application gets shortlisted, I get a flat stipend to come out. The second school said they didn't have funds and to ask the PI I was interested in. And surprise! My PI offered to fly me out on her grant. I am now working with her :-)
  9. I know this is late but just in case. My PI was placed on administrative leave that lasted for about 2 weeks. Came back and it was like nothing happened. Whole lab continued as normal. I would advise going directly to a department chair and asking for guidance for future students in this position and whatever you do, don't gossip because the usual suspects of inappropriate relationships with students and such were wrong with this case (and might be for you as well). Department chairs usually know what is going on and can best advice. In my case, PI had a mental-health related outburst that affected some personnel and the department advised us we had no need to worry about our own positions and offered support.
  10. I had a question for previous awardees of the Vanier Canada Graduate Scholarship and those who have previously tried to apply for this award. I was told that the scholarship is more likely to be won by those in their upper years and to not apply until I was more senior. I am starting my PhD next fall. Is this because more senior students have more things to show for in their application / CV, or does the scholarship just favour those who are more senior? Has anyone tried applying as a 1st year student and been successful? Thank you.
  11. I know this is quite late in the game for an answer, but I'm putting it here because I have a feeling others have the same questions. It is quite dependent on your university and your department the different rules they put in place. I would check. e.g., From McMaster: https://fhs.mcmaster.ca/hr/documents/PermissionToWorkForm.pdf From UBC: https://www.grad.ubc.ca/forms/request-exception-employment-limit-form Generally, the logic is they don't want students to be working so much they neglect their studies, research (and publishing!), and health, especially if what you will be doing is working at a coffee house somewhere or a job that pays minimum wage. However, if you can show you are able to keep your productivity up, are on track for graduating, still be healthy, and that your employment is synergistic to your research, you might be able to build a case.
  12. I'm working on that, too. You probably already read this online, but here's what it says on the CIHR website: The applicant can provide the following information as it cannot be captured in the CCV, that is: Applicants must, for each multi-authored publication relevant to this application, define their role in the publication and indicate their percent contribution to the team effort. Applicants are invited to comment on environmental factors that affected their capacity to publish and to add any other contributions/activities that cannot be captured in the CCV. Does anybody know if they strictly refer to only journal articles/chapters or do posters/conference papers/abstracts count as well? Thank you.
  13. For what it's worth, I find being completely upfront the best thing for me. I remember a conversation with a prof I TA with where she mentioned in passing that it was annoying that she needed to wait at home for the pool cleaners to come and that interfered with her golf outing with a friend. The story then goes that the golf was supposed to lead to some dressage show. I made some comment about loving horses and she asked how often I rode, and I said never, even though I used to volunteer with them just so I could be around them. When she asked why, I told her upfront I didn't have the money to ride. The prof looked at me quite puzzled and I had to explain that the money it cost to ride (equipment, clothes, riding lessons, etc) is equivalent to X number of meals I could eat in a week or month, or maybe part of my rent. She really had zero clue what her students make do with.
  14. Another thing you might want to check is quota. Some departments might only have a quota for a specific council. I was deciding between CIHR and SSHRC, too, but that decision was taken out of my hands when I found out the department I was interested in didn't have a SSHRC quota so I automatically defaulted to CIHR. Then it became a question of tailoring my question to meet CIHR's eligibility.
  15. Thank you for starting this! I'm hoping to apply (CIHR). It sounds so scary though. I would appreciate any and all help as well!