I really do want it ! But it has been rough.. feel deeply disappointed.. I just need the gather up my courage and resolve that was just so badly torn by these rejections.. will have to retake GRE, work on some more publications, and gain some additional coursework..
Then again.. it's just a year.. I spent 12 years as a stay-at-home .. don't regret that... Thankfully I don't have worry about looking for a job.. My husband supports me well at this