hello! i am applying to phd programs and have requested my letters of recommendation (one from UG, one from my master's program, one from my current job, and one from the job i had for two years prior to this one). it's a long story, but unfortunately, i might not be able to secure a letter from the job i held for two years. i think this would be a glaring hole and would raise a lot of questions, and i honestly am so devastated. is there a way to compensate for this? is it something i could address in my personal statement without sounding defensive?
i'm re-taking the GRE in the coming week and will see how i do in terms of improving my score. taken all together, i think my application is strong but i have a lot of doubts and i fear that missing this letter will put me out of the running entirely. i know application prep can make everyone feel that way, and i'm having trouble discerning how much of those beliefs are due to the current stress of this missing letter versus reality (can you tell i'm applying to clinical programs lol?).
what do you y'all think? is one missing letter going to be a huge problem? if so, is there anything i can do about it?