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  1. youngcharlie101

    In spite of all my imperfections, I still hope I'm worthy of being loved the right way. :(

    1. iphi

      iphi

      you have to love you first!

    2. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      :( I'm working on it.
  2. youngcharlie101
    I'm reading "Lolita" for the first time. It's quite intense. What a creepy pedophile! But there is one line that makes me cry every time I read it, especially since I'm going through a breakup with my first love: "My solemn exasperation was to her the silence of love." <3
  3. youngcharlie101

    I feel ashamed of myself for realizing this now, but my epiphany is finally here: I really don't need to go to a prestigious school to get a decent education. I went to NYU, and I hated it there. I'm hoping to apply to some other PhD programs next fall depending on fit, not reputation. :)

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    2. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      Yes!!! Thank you! So it's not just me! :-D

  4. youngcharlie101

    Getting rejected isn't fun. I put my heart and soul into my applications when we broke up, and now I have nothing left. :(

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    2. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      Thanks. :) I'm trying to get into teaching high school kids. I just wish I wasn't in so much pain. Therapy and wine should help. :)

    3. Monochrome Spring

      Monochrome Spring

      I second the vote for therapy and wine. :)

    4. Neuronista

      Neuronista

      You can always reapply. I know it hurts. I've been applying for 3 years and I have been finally accepted. Just don't give up!

  5. youngcharlie101
    You're definitely right, friend. It's so terrible to think of paying for a second MA. Blegh.. Thank you so much. I'll definitely look into possibly taking some courses to meet professors.
  6. youngcharlie101
    Bye bye, NYU! Bye bye, pompous professors with no tushy holes! I can't believe I actually wanted to continue studying there. It was my first choice, but after getting rejected and berated by a pompous professor for even trying to get into NYU's Comp Lit department, I realized that I'm actually much better off being human. :-D
  7. youngcharlie101
    Bye bye, NYU! Bye bye, pompous professors with no tushy holes! I can't believe I actually wanted to continue studying there. It was my first choice, but after getting rejected and berated by a pompous professor for even trying to get into NYU's Comp Lit department, I realized that I'm actually much better off being human. :-D
  8. youngcharlie101

    Just got rejected from my top choice, but surprisingly, I feel fine! Feeling good! Where's the wine at?? :-D

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    2. MidwesternAloha

      MidwesternAloha

      Treat yourself to an expensive bottle of wine! You've been through a lot and you deserve it.

    3. attackonthedoctor

      attackonthedoctor

      You feel fine because you know you're better than your rejections. :D White wine or red?

    4. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      Thanks, everybody! Red wine all the way! :-D

  9. youngcharlie101
    Hey, everybody! Wanted to thank you all for always guiding me and being some awesome friends. I'd love your opinion on another matter, if that's okay. Well, I graduated with my MA in Humanities and Social Thought from NYU. To be honest, this program was a waste of money. I've often heard that the Draper Program at NYU is the cash cow. I didn't learn much, and I'd like to be more well-rounded in literature, especially if I have the desire to go for a PhD later. I'm interested in Rutgers' MA in English at Camden. They even have teaching assistantships and a generous funding opportunity. Here's the thing though: I missed the February 1st deadline to be considered for the teaching assistantship. The regular deadline for the MA is July 1st. I'm currently getting my New York teaching license, and I'm going to work like hell to get a high school teaching job. However, should I wait to apply to Rutgers next year so I can be considered for the assistantship? Or should I give it a shot and apply this year before July 1? Thanks!
  10. youngcharlie101

    It's been almost a month. Is it normal to be missing the douche who broke my heart? WINE!

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    2. ERR_Alpha

      ERR_Alpha

      Haha yes, my friend did say Tinder helped her out of her post relationship rut. (She never even dated them... Just enjoyed the self esteem boosts from matching!)

    3. bgt28

      bgt28

      It will take time. Don't worry about "normal." It will take time.

    4. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      :)
  11. youngcharlie101

    Just another day without him, but the pain is still here. :-\

  12. youngcharlie101

    Made a very important decision today. I am no longer going for my PhD. All those pompous assholes at NYU made me realize that I'm much better off being human. No matter what I do, it'll never be good enough. I'm so done. Thank God I already have my MA. Now to get my NY teaching license and start teaching high school kids. :)

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    2. 1Q84

      1Q84

      it's not the students... it's the administration ;) they do everything in their power to keep you from being an effective and caring teacher. sigh. best of luck!

    3. LittleDarlings

      LittleDarlings

      That is awesome congrats on your decision

    4. clinicalapplicant

      clinicalapplicant

      Congratulations. It's so hard, but ultimately you know what's best for you. Go for it <3

  13. youngcharlie101
    Accepting my fate is surprisingly easy. I love whoever came up with "implied rejection." I feel less like crap because I know what's coming!
  14. youngcharlie101
    I've tried SO hard to get accommodations last summer. I'm going to see my doctor next week and ask her to write me a very detailed letter to ETS with my hospitalization records.
  15. youngcharlie101
    Thanks very much, dear friend. I will try again and see how everything goes.
  16. youngcharlie101
    You are awesome, friend. Thank you very much. It makes me sad when people think that I'm not cut out for academia because of the childhood I had. I didn't ask to have psychological issues. That's like saying to a blind person, "Maybe you're not cut out for walking." But I am going to get a hold on this terrible beast consuming me. Anxiety hurts really bad.
  17. youngcharlie101
    I'm trying to. Really I am. Sometimes I wish it were a limp or diabetes than anxiety.
  18. youngcharlie101
    Thank you. Practicing the timing matter might help me.
  19. youngcharlie101
    Hi, ProfLorax. Yes, I spoke to my comp lit and anthro professors. They looked over my personal statement, wrote me strong letters, provided me feedback on my writing sample, etc. It's my GRE that sucks.
  20. youngcharlie101
    They definitely won't give me a refund, but perhaps I can try asking them for a retake policy. I've definitely been trying to get a hold on my anxiety. I'm on medication and seeing a therapist (I'm a trauma survivor). This exam just gives me the bloody heebie jeebies.
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    I have paid over $6000 for the GRE. I used Manhattan Prep's $1000 online course, purchased over 30 hours of private tutoring at $225/hr, 10 books of the MP curriculum, and countless flashcards. I also used Magoosh and studied at least 4 hours every day. I brought flash cards with me everywhere I went, but come test day, these were my abysmally abysmal scores: Verbal: 153 Quantitative: 146 Analytical Writing: 5.5 I went through hell for this exam, but on test day, it's like everything I studied was not on the test. I ended up in the hospital twice because of the GRE. It gives me severe anxiety; the day before the exam, I blacked out and had almost three panic attacks. I also tried to get testing accommodations for extra time, but ETS is comprised of some of the meanest people who have no compassion for psychological impairments. I am planning on traveling to France this summer for a vacation, and I would be willing to take the paper-based version of the GRE there, if need be. I seriously don't know what else to do about this exam. It is standing in the way of me and my PhD admission. What can I do?
  22. youngcharlie101

    Sometimes I wonder if it's better to be in a coma than to suffer the pain of rejection.

    1. smcg

      smcg

      It absolutely is. Coma=no pain/oblivion.

  23. youngcharlie101

    In so much pain right now. You think you know somebody, then they step all over your heart.

    1. .letmeinplz//

      .letmeinplz//

      I know. Admission committees love stepping all over our hearts!

    2. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      Touché. :)

  24. youngcharlie101

    It's amazing! Chocolate really does solve all my problems. Om nom nom..

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    2. youngcharlie101

      youngcharlie101

      I think I ate like maybe 10 packs of peanut butter cups. The dinner of champions!

    3. AdilB990

      AdilB990

      LOL@dinner of champions... You deserve a medal for this, preferably one made of chocolate! Hehe

    4. Eternal Student

      Eternal Student

      Have you tried wine? Works much better for me. Gin also does the trick. Even faster.

  25. youngcharlie101
    You are all making me cry. Good tears though! Thanks for the positive vibes, everybody. Gotta keep on keepin' on!
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