Adelaide9216

Hello, just wanted to give some news to those who were worried about me: I am okay. My mental state is good, despite the circumstances. I do a lot of self-care. I want to thank those of you who have shown empathy towards me and remembered that I am a human being (instead of being paternalistic and judgmental or tried to "Dr Phil'ed" me on the Internet in assuming that I should not do a Ph.D which is a big LOL to me). My supervisor said that if the external examiner fails me again, we're going to appeal for sure. I feel better though because I know that I have a "recourse" or an option if something turns bad again. The news came out that I got the scholarship. I have received multiple hundreds of messages of congratulations. Not all of those people know about my thesis failure, but I feel encouraged by these people who actually know me IRL and are confident in my ability to succeed. I also have a third professor who has accepted to read and comment the revised version of my thesis, before we send it off to evaluation again. I feel less anxious than I did a month ago. I am going to do the best that I can, just like I have always done, and I know that in the event that something happens again, my whole department is ready to defend me in the case of an appeal (again, these are professors that have known me for years and are confident in my ability to succeed in academia). I also want to mention that I won't be coming here as much as I used to, because this place is not healthy for me. If you want to keep in touch, just PM me.

I AM focusing on my thesis. How many times am I going to say this for God’s sake? I am doing what I am supposed to do and have been since day 1. and Which path are you talking about?? This sounds very paternalistic.

Yes but you don’t know me. You guys are putting stuff into my mouth that I have never said or even thought. You’re also misinterpreting my desire to succeed in academia. Whos the admin of this forum? I don’t want to keep on posting here. I’m tired of having to explain who I am.

This is totally not true. I want to strive to be a better academic and researcher and I take criticism well 99% of the time. You truly do not know me. PS I know how the publication system works. I had one article rejected recently. I did not fret about it and worked happily on doing revisions.

I just want to delete my account at this point. I’m so tired of having everything I say being misunderstood or misinterpreted.

I always give people the benefit of the doubt. Again you are putting words into my mouth. The bad intentions regarding the external examiner are not coming from me and were never my first thought, I still assume the good faith of the examiner. Look, the reason why I looked for support here is that I am the only student in my masters program who took a thesis option. I am looking for support wherever I can find it because I don’t have access to a peer support network at school and none of my friends or family are in academia. I do admit that I regret talking about my situation here. There are a lot of words put in my mouth. Plus, There are a lot of details that you people don’t have about what happened and even if you did, there are still people who would misinterpret my intent or feelings regarding what happened.

Look you don’t know my background or the reasons why my family and friends said this.

Wow I never said anything like you’re mentioning whatsoever. Where have I mentioned that my work was perfect???? And PS you clearly don’t know me. You’re extremely judgemental. I am not spending my time blaming people, I AM working on my thesis and have been since day 1. Leave me alone. You don’t know the details of what happened and you do not know me.

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My link with my advisor allows me to say those things. Maybe you have a different link with yours. My advisor also thinks it was unfair. That’s why. (And I don’t necessarily agree with what my family and friends think by the way for the reasons you’ve just mentioned, none of my friends and family are in grad school.) PS: I am doing what I am supposed to do. I’m not spending my life thinking about how unfair I was possibly treated. My focus is on getting a pass in order to start my PhD and to not lose my Vanier scholarship. That’s it.

I already have that type of memo. I am addressing the changes. That’s my plan, regardless of the examiners intentions.

I'm glad I spoke with my supervisor and explained to her the pressure I feel daily ever since I learned I failed. She is going to give me feedback on what I have written so far by Tuesday. My anxiety level went down today. I ate ice cream to congratulate me for my good work. I'm a fighter. I'll make it, one day at a time.

Yes, I have another professor who is going to read my thesis. Thanks!

She has told me that she does not agree 100% with the evaluation made by the external examiner. She thinks the examiner was too severe. I told her that my family and some of my friends even think that this examiner purposefully want to fail me out of jealousy or something (I'm well-known in my field of study where I live, so the examiner must know who I am according to my friends and family). But I don't know if she purposefully wants to fail me, I tend to give the benefit of the doubt to people most of the time. My supervisor also told me that she has a lot of empathy for the situation I am in (may lose Vanier and doctoral admission). Either way, my supervisor thinks that there are very few chances that I fail again if I apply everything she mentioned in her comments (which I plan on doing). She told me that if that examiner fails me again, I can report it to the Dean. Also, the examiner took one extra month to correct my thesis when the deadline was within 4 weeks. That gives me one month less in terms of time to correct my thesis...

My thesis advisor apologized to me today. She said I should not have failed and she entirely understands the pressure I am feeling right now.

I am not in the same field as you, but I also failed my master's thesis. I am working on resubmitting. Hang in there, we can do it! xx

One step at the time.

*hugs*

I feel like crying. Too much pressure.

According to my university's policy, I cannot speak to her (potential conflict of interest) which sucks. The only thing I have noticed while looking at the theses she supervised is that the theory framework chapters are relatively short while mine is 10 pages... I will take a look at those again. Thanks!

Help! One of the comments from my external examiner on my master's thesis was that although my chapter on the theoretical frameworks I have used is great, I don't stress enough how those frameworks are going to be useful to my analysis. I have been looking online for resources on how to do this, and I can't find anything. Any resources (articles, books) that is easy to understand and practical to help me out? Thanks!

Wow, we just got asked by university to provide a picture and description of research project. So much pressure.

Wow, Vanier public announcement is next week. I thought it'd be later in the summer. Everyone is going to congratulate me and I don't even know if I am actually going to be a PhD student next September.

Vanier public announcement on May 16.

There's a free colloquium happening this week that is directly related to my PhD research subject. My friend organized it. There will be elected officials, and other very important people for my research project. It's a huge event. I have taken days off from work to attend. But I am hesitating to attend because it won't be useful to attend an event for my PhD studies if I can't pass my master's thesis. So I am thinking of taking those days off to work on my thesis instead. Plus, there will be a lot of people that I know at this event and I don't necessarily want everyone to ask me about how my thesis evaluation went.