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I am sorry:(

Good advice! Thanks!

I work on this everyday. Yesterday was the first day I took a day off ever since I learned I have failed. It's really hard emotionally, I feel anxious very often, but at least, I'm into action mode. Thanks everyone and I really appreciate those of you who PM'd me to check on me. It means a lot to me. I emailed my department and they said they will do everything to make sure I pass (even if I don't exactly know what that means). Everyone is confident that I can succeed (family, friends, colleagues, supervisor, department) but I am still doubtful due to what happened. I'm just scared of that reviewer. Even the best parts I have done in my thesis (according to her) did not get a great mark. She is very severe and has high expectations...I don't think she wants to fail me, and I always believed she had good faith. But she does have very high expectations, and I was told that she is expecting stuff that are not required for a master's thesis (but that I still will do due to the fact that she will evaluate the second version of my thesis). If I fail again, even if I'd bring it to the Dean, I'd still lose Vanier and my PhD admission. So I have decided that ff I fail again, I think it'll just mean that doctoral studies weren't meant for me and that my road is elsewhere, which I am ready to accept. I have a lot of willpower and drive, but in the end, life has the last word. I did everything I could to pass, I don't think I am to blame for what happened. There are a lot of external factors to this situation that were against me. Sometimes, it just isn't meant to happen. I will do everything to pass, but I'm ready to accept failure and to leave academia if this isn't for me.

Hello, I will be the sole reader. But I have used member-checking and an advisory committee for rigor in my research. What are your sources? Thanks!

Been working on my thesis all day today. Will do tomorrow as well.

Seeing how far previous Vanier scholars have gone make me very anxious. I want to go far as well and I know that having Vanier would help me. But now, I may lose the scholarship if I don't pass my master's thesis. FML

I got Vanier

I went to take a coffee with a friend of mine. And the people I have told about my thesis failure regularly check on me, to make sure I am okay. My siblings as well. I'm lucky to be this well-surrounded.

I got SSHRC Doctoral, but got only a score of 12. something on 20. But I have to decline it anyways, so someone on the waitlist is going to have that scholarship hopefully.

Apparently, there is no waitlist for this award... FRQSC appears to be extremely hard to get. I don't understand their system.

We got an email for pictures !

Wow , I am so sorry this happened to you!

I will wait, I have failed my masters thesis so I am focusing on editing and resubmitting for the next weeks

I think I can pass my thesis.

I want to apologize for my comment on the previous page. I absolutely did not mean to offend anyone. I do not express myself well.

Congrats everyone !!!

I applied but didn’t get selected. I was ranked 6th and they gave 4 scholarships. I am not eligible anyways because of Vanier.

You re absolutely right.

That is not at all what I meant to say. You’re totally misunderstanding me here. I never said that PhD is the only way to be successful. You’re putting words in my mouth and assuming stuff. PS: FYI, I come from a family where my mom, with no job, raised a huge family on her own. No one in my family has a university degree. I grew up in poverty. I don’t come from a privileged background. But I am aware that I am privileged now and when I say the award is merit based, it’s just me repeating what is said about those awards, I never said that I agree with the system or that I agree with the word merit. I am just explaining how this system works for people who want academic careers. I am just saying how the game works. I never said I agree with that game. It is true that a lot of people can’t apply for multiple and valid reasons. I am saying this for the people who can apply, but don’t probably because they don’t know they could apply. A lot of people underestimate their chances of being able to get these awards (myself included). I also agree that having a support system makes a huge difference and that not everyone has that.

Even if they have good resources, these people should still apply. Getting those scholarships look good on a CV if they want a career in academia. These scholarships are merit-based, not need-based. Getting them also shows communication skills and ability to explain your research in simple terms and to a wider audience, which is key in academia. I personally believe that people should always apply to any scholarship they are eligible for, regardless of having financial resources/means to survive through grad school. Even the small scholarships create a "pipeline" to win the bigger and most prestigious ones. This is really important in grad school and after grad school.

Hello, your best tools to conduct a Qualitative Data Analysis (thematic analysis)? Books or articles. I have a few resources but unfortunately, they weren't helpful in my case.

This is hard.

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Thank you everyone for your responses. Sorry for the lack of responses, I am working on the edits since yesterday. I have made a table of all the changes I need to make and I will address all of them, including where she mentioned "this part is good, but could have been better" I want her to see that I went above and beyond...

I received the official letter from my university saying that if I fail my thesis again, I will be expelled. My emotions are literally a roller coster right now. I still work on my thesis, but there are moments where I feel like "what if I don't make it? what if pursuing a PhD wasn't meant to happen? What am I going to say to all the people who know about my PhD acceptance and Vanier scholarship?". And there are other moments where I feel like in 10 years, I'll be laughing over this with my (future) students. I am going to do everything I can to pass. I cancelled all my extracurricular activities for the next month. But it doesn't feel comfortable right now to be in my shoes, I feel so much pressure. I don't want everything I have worked so hard to be taken away from me. I try to put that pressure and negative thoughts into a box and not let them paralyze me. I also try to remember that I am a fighter and have always been. I know I belong in academia. I know I want to do a PhD. I know I've got what it takes. I know I am not at fault for what happened. I know this is not reflective of my worth. I know why this happened, how easily avoidable it actually was and who's to blame, but I cannot throw a pity party right now, it's useless. I need to take action and move forward.