I feel you all so hard on this, wow. It's like, I know that things will eventually work out, but it's hard! About a year ago one of my profs told me that no one from my (state) school had ever gotten in to a good PhD program so I might as well not bother applying, and I'm beginning to feel like she was right, that I've been stupid to think that I could break the pattern, etc etc etc.
Plus, I think I might be able to imply a Michigan rejection at this point, and I don't want to break it to a friend (of sorts) of mine who goes there. I selfishly wanted to go where he is, and I feel doubly dumb now. Oi.