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They renewed the domain and restored an old .wordpress.com blog I used literally 4 years ago. So I think that they just... got rid of the actual site?

WordPress via Bluehost, but I initially bought the .com domain from WordPress. I can see all of the titles of my old pages and posts when in WordPress, but can't access, edit, or view anything. Just contacted tech support again.

ughhhhhhhhhh

I laughed out loud, omg

An updated vent: my domain has been restored (woo!) but Wordpress has deleted all. of. my. fucking. content. from the past four years. I do not have back ups of most of them. So. I don't even fucking know!

The week of the eleventh is gonna be huge I think, but I'm personally hoping that Michigan / Cal / Stanford will surprise us early.

Welcome! Also, I see that you have it in your signature. Being on mobile, I must have missed it. Hopefully you get some good news soon!

I'm trying to renew it now but it will take a while. I'm going to email the programs today and be like "heyyyyyy... please check out these other things I did...."

What school?

It’s for DH programs, so I think it might be, ha. Let’s hope not

No, it’s for creative / DH projects, so it’s like, online projects that act as supplements to my CV. Thankfully nothing major, but super embarrassing and it reflects really poorly on me.

you guys. i fucked up. i'm losing my mind. i don't know what to do. i just went to my personal website to check something, and it's down. my domain expired on the first of the year and i did not know / did not receive a notification. this wouldn't be a huge deal, but two of the programs i applied for had online portfolio options, which i submitted as a LINK TO MY WEBSITE. there's no fucking way i get into those schools if they go to see my portfolio and get a DNS error page. i feel so so so so so so so so dumb. i'm even crying over it, which feels especially embarrassing. ugh.

Tomorrow is still a possibility!

This happened to me last year (7 PhDs, 1 MA). No dice. I’m going to be straight with you, it IS really disheartening and tough to deal with. However, after taking almost a year to try and calm down and go easier on myself, I’m pretty glad (most of the time) that I didn’t enter a program right out of UG. It’s kind of exposed academia for what it is and made me focus on non-academic pursuits. So one one hand, not getting in was devastating, but on the other, really good in the long run (I hope). And that being said, it’s not over til it’s over! Chin up!

Last year I went up to visit my aunt for the weekend and was definitely a bit tipsy when I checked the results board. Also I was wrong and edited my post; they emailed last year!

Last year they made calls on a Friday night.... just saying.... EDIT: *emails

Theory: they’re closed because it’s the day that they’re meeting to finalize decisions!

I think it’s this too. That’s why Berkeley says they “typically” take only 95th percentile plus. If they published them, I’d think there’d be a couple people each year who didn’t do nearly as well.

Unrelated to GS rant: I have a doctors appt today and was thrilled to get here early, take a leisurely walk across this campus, etc. I parked at the wrong hospital and had to sprint a mile to make my time. But hey, it’s kind of nice to be sweaty and out of breath from something other than panic?

Why are they closed? That’s so weird.

I have no implied rejections but left work early because my anxiety-induced nausea was killing me

that's awesome!

!!!! congratulations !!!!

it also makes it feel like i've disappointed everyone who believed in me! i'm also choosing to believe your yoga instructor and simultaneously blaming my despair on the eclipse!

ugh, this is so real. the best consolation i ever got when whining about grad school was "i think you'll get in, but you might not get in anywhere. that being said, you're smart enough to figure out a great plan b if you don't get in, and it's going to be fine." yeah, that's true. BUT if this is the second year i'm applying with a high gpa (4.0 in english), pretty high gres, aaaaand conferences and publications, i'm not going to feel like there's anything else i can do. which comes back to it being "rigged" i guess. what i think i'm getting at isn't that i'm a "bad" student / candidate, but that if i don't get in regardless, all of my merits aren't going to matter much (for this). i'm not sure if i've explained that well at all? agh. i'm frustrated.