You sound incredibly qualified, and like you took all of the necessary steps for strong applications. I know this whole process can be disheartening and confusing. Also I can complete relate about the pricey application fees and mental health distress that comes from investing in these programs. However, I would encourage you to also take time to take care of yourself these next few months. Yes, your family and friends don't completely understand what you are going through, but you deserve their encouragement and support.
This is my first time applying as well and I just received my first formal rejection letter today. I actually asked the program for their feedback on my application and found it super helpful and reassuring. Maybe a few of your programs could offer you that as well, so that next time you can fine tune your applications to better meet their fit.
It sounds like you are super committed to this field so don't give up hope just yet! ❤️ With time you will only become more qualified and an even stronger candidate. Best of luck!