You and I are soooo on the same page. I feel completely liberated. It's like I have a giant monkey off my back. I am in no way putting this on anyone else - but as for me, I AM OVER IT! Don't get me wrong, if they accepted me tomorrow I would be elated. However, I cannot freak out about this every day, all day. I have a really full life, with a lot of amazing things going on. And my son is having surgery on Friday (nothing major, just a torn shoulder muscle). So I realized that I need to go back to living my life, fully - and realize it will happen when it happens. And if they don't accept me this time, I will reapply and take a class there while I wait, since I have determined that it will be my school! I feel a lot of relief and a lot of peace. I took my future school and gradcafe off of my Top Sites, so I don't see it all the time when I am paying bills or answering student emails. It's definitely a welcome back to my life and I have a restraining order on anxiety. Feels pretty good!