smg

Sounds like paranoia to me. It seems like different programs have different flavors and one of the flavors is chock full of daily reminders and the others aren't.

I know I'm alive cause I'm anxious.

Moldy this might help you out: http://www.thegradcafe.com/survey/index.php?q=unc+anthropology+ I'm older too but without any real responsibility. I'm a manchild.

Don't sweat it. Hold tight. Folks are super busy this time of the year.

I wouldn't without good reason.

Whats next folks? Other than waiting?

indie rock

I forgot about Bukowski and Camus. Great so great.

Henry Miller seems to be my fave literary fellow. Herman Melville may come next. I used to love Neal Stephenson. I just bought a copy of The Diamond Age which I read 10 or so years ago. I'm looking forward to cracking it open. As far as poets are concerned I cant get enough of Langston Hughes.

I'm so stoked you wrote "dick move".

UCDavis's SOP and Personal Statement where 4,000 and 2,000 characters. Not words, not pages but characters. It was annoying adapting my SOP and PS to fix their little totalitarian boxes. I used excerpts from an essay I wrote a million years ago for my writing sample. It might have been too long for Davis and too short for Chicago but doing custom edits for each school seemed ludicrous. If I'm rejected from a school cause I was a page short or a page long I dont want to be there anyways. NACHO TIME

Chicago is in. WUSTL is the only one left and I have a month before its due.

UChicago is working for me at 6:35am ET.

One minute I think I wont get in anywhere and the next I worry about having to choose where to go cause I'll get in everywhere. Ultimately, I'm just tired, just fucking tired. I tried re-reading my SOP an hour or so ago. It made me ill. Not cause it was bad I just couldn't handle it anymore like looking in the mirror on a BAD morning. I'm relieved by tomorrows deadline. UCHICAGO is done cause it has to be regardless of how I feel about it. I tried. I gave it a go. That's all that can be expected at this point. Who will do this again if they don't get in this round?

I reiterate that going to school X will allow me to conduct research Y.

Are folks feeling hopeful or hopeless about their PhD prospects? I'm stalling on my UChicago app. I should send it in now but I wont let myself I think I'm holding off on the slight chance I will have a flash of insight and radically transform my writing sample from a turd into a treasure.

I told UChicago I have no $$$.

God dammit I found another mistake in my SOP. I had the wrong date in my works cited. Shit happens. I need a professional proof reader!

I couldn't handle trying to summon up more than one potential project from the depths. Conceptualizing one project has been both exciting and life draining. I'm ecstatic and exhausted at the same time. Two would be a cerebral OD.

1 more application in. 2 left.

Brutal.

Is the cost of living extraordinary in all of California or just the Bay Area?

That sucks. My graduation date is on my unofficial transcripts. Can you just make up a date? Are they really going to double check? Who gives a shit what day you graduated? I'm so damn tired of apps, especially repeating stuff that's in my SOP and CV. Why ask for an SOP and a CV if you want additional statements on work, research and what my shit looks and smells like.

I should have. Working with Rabinow would have been the coolest. Instead I applied to UCSB and UCDavis.