rmcclymo Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 Increasingly moody - definitely :-( Interaction with other humans pisses me off quite often regardless of my context, but the past week or so I have been increasingly short circuiting - I want to go to the moon :-) Usually playing soccer is a good relief for me, but I was horrible at a game last weekend - like a monster. Best of luck to everyone who is in the same boat as me. For those of you who are handling this process with grace, I am truly jealous and would love to know your secret. kateow 1
lechatgris Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 Usually playing soccer is a good relief for me, but I was horrible at a game last weekend - like a monster. I play too and I've found that my general abundance of surliness adds a lot of, erm, "spirit" to my game. Plus, I've got some seriously impressive bruises to color my library pallor.
Curca Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 (edited) You guys are hilarious! 33 minutes until January 21st begins which might just be the day one of us hears something...;o) Edited January 21, 2011 by Curca Zouzax 1
neshmi Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 Speaking of mail... it is really funny that other people get excited about snail mail. My program application specifically said I will be notified by e-mail... doesn't change the fact that the day AFTER I hit submit on the online application I was eagerly checking my mailbox... like I'm going to find this magic acceptance letter that some how moved through the Chicago postal system in record time. Yeah right. But faithfully every day around 3:00pm I am antsy and I eyeball the postwoman coming down the walk and then storm my mailbox only to angrily tear up 2 or 3 credit card offers... arggghhhh!!!! I want to hear SOMETHING... ANYTHING!
Alyanumbers Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 I am really stressed out, but no, not angry. Probably because before I started the application process, I was doing a Summer Training From Hell, which is when I used to be really moody and constantly irritated by people. Result: I lost one of my best friends. I'm more prone to tears than to anger, now. I haven't had much opportunity to 'wait', so to speak. Over the past 5 months, I've been studying for the TOEFL and GRE, writing my SoP, and then my first ever academic paper over 5 pages--in English (my first language is French and my second Arabic), and keeping up with my regular schoolwork. I'll be done with finals next Wednesday (semesters at my uni last from mid-September to late January, then mid-February to mid-June), and I really think I'll feel much better when the only thing I have to worry about is grad school.
augustquail Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 (edited) Probably best to distract oneself with even more imperious preoccupations, by such as, volunteering as an air traffic controller at a busy airport, or joining an underground mercenary Fight Club to the death, with no-holds-barred matches of barbed wire and mace weaponry prowess. Whatever works. there isn't a fight club in my town, sadly. I think I will start boxing. Edited January 21, 2011 by augustquail
Zouzax Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 You guys are hilarious! 33 minutes until January 21st begins which might just be the day one of us hears something...;o) haha u sound like me! as soon as my clock hits 4 pm (which is 9 am EST) the waiting begins... until 12 AM when I finally breathe a sigh of relief (which doesnt stop me from still checking my email at 1, 2 AM, thinking a late-night email mightve come through)
lab ratta-tat-tat Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 I do not know why I did not read and comprehend the poster above's statement about the HR block large white envelope..... probably due to lack of sleep, nightmares about not getting in BUT......... Last night I flung open the mailbox to find a white large envelope inside. My heart raced and I could no longer think about how damn cold my hands were, i juste wanted to rip that envelope to shreds. I frantically dropped all my belongings right there on the concrete and start screaming "oh my god oh my god this is ittttttt!!!!" In hindsight I should have looked on the outside of the envelope.... I tore the envelope open throwing the contents on the ground only to find "HR block thanks you for your business... blah blah blah" What the BEEP?!?! F U HR block. You mean i have to keep waiting? Needless to say, I threw the contents from HR block away. Damn promotional offers, you piss me off the most GGRRRR!!!
OR_Dan Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 This makes me glad I stopped smoking before deciding to apply (actually, only a few months before), because there's no way I could have quit while dealing with all this. I'm sure the stress would cause any smoker to smoke more than usual, and there have definitely been times during this application process when I've had a distinct craving. If any smokers here eventually want to quit for life, I would think the period between acceptance and matriculation (like, April through August) is the time to do so. Because the stress of the waiting period means the odds aren't in your favor, but the stress of the waiting period is nothing compared to the stress of being in the doctoral program itself. Five to eight years of constant stress will make quitting harder. That happy liminal period -- the one when you're coasting on your acceptances and thinking romantically about your new life -- would likely be the easiest time to deal with the withdrawal and everything. Just saying. Thanks for the advice. I was actually thinking about quiting after I satrted. You know, new city, new life and cigarette-free. But what you're saying actually makes a lot of sense I'm really going to mull it over. Thanks a lot.
neshmi Posted January 21, 2011 Posted January 21, 2011 So anyone else waiting to hear from UCSD's social science's division??? we can commiserate together...
barber5 Posted January 22, 2011 Posted January 22, 2011 I totally, TOTALLY understand how you feel about this. I empathize with you 100%. I dread attending a couple of my classes only because I am so over the competitiveness, the attention seeking, and the brown nosing. I felt the exact same way, but I managed to do all 3 in a class today, so I guess not.
kotov Posted January 22, 2011 Posted January 22, 2011 At least all of y'all are probably 21...I have to suffer in sobriety... :/
cheshirequeen Posted January 22, 2011 Posted January 22, 2011 (edited) Now that it's late January (how did that happen so quickly?) and replies are imminent, I'm definitely getting more antsy and neurotic. I've been poring over old posts from previous application years to see when I can expect to hear back from which schools, who got in where, and generally being fussy and obsessive. I've been compulsively eating, too--entire boxes of cereal in 2 days, multiple brownies. My boyfriend thought I was mad at him because I've been (unintentionally) ignoring him all week. Waiting is the hardest part... Edited January 22, 2011 by cheshirequeen
lab ratta-tat-tat Posted January 22, 2011 Posted January 22, 2011 @ Kotov I am so sorry you are not 21 but...... you could always drink copious amounts of coffee or soda and get super energetic and take out your anxiety in a positive way. I am 23 now, but my first time applying to grad school I was 20, my 21st birthday literally fell after the april15th deadline. My parents sent me a box of those chocolate covered espresso beans. I didn't know you weren't suppose to consume about 5 at the most and I was bouncing off the walls (and super productive mind you!) Also, Baileys sells chocolates with some alcohol type filling These are just suggestions, I can empathize with your situation a little bit On another note- I work for the program I am applying to, yesterday while we were having lab meeting I saw the admissions committee gather in the room next to us. My heart just about stopped, I no longer cared about the latest product from invitrogen or the newest pippetts we were getting that cost $3,000 I kept thinking -Oh my gosh they have me application, i wish they would just walk over and tell me something!!! It added a little stress to my day/anxiety eeek!!!
Irishlibra Posted January 23, 2011 Posted January 23, 2011 I've definitely gotten moodier! In fact, I'm downright cranky at work. I always have to double check to make sure my filter is working before speaking. All I need is one acceptance to take the pressure off. Please, oh please!
thereandbackagain Posted January 23, 2011 Posted January 23, 2011 Okay. So yeah. This totally explains why I was ready to bite the head off the incompetent woman at the grocery store bakery tonight. Got it. Must start exercising. Something. Glad that I'm not the only one who's starting to feel the effects of this experience.
Alyanumbers Posted January 23, 2011 Posted January 23, 2011 Okay. So yeah. This totally explains why I was ready to bite the head off the incompetent woman at the grocery store bakery tonight. Got it. Must start exercising. Something. Glad that I'm not the only one who's starting to feel the effects of this experience. OT, but I love the quote in your signature!
sputnik Posted January 25, 2011 Author Posted January 25, 2011 Yeah. My moodiness is reaching all time highs now. People from my program at school are starting to get acceptances. Granted, I didn't apply to any of the schools they have, but it's pissing me off. I have yet to hear a damn thing from anyone. I'd almost take a rejection just to hear something! Plus, I'm getting sick of reading posts on the board that go something like, "Hi Everyone! I am perfect in every way! I have a perfect GPA and a perfect GRE and the perfect professor at the perfect uni is perfectly in love with me! And even though I'm so perfectly perfect, I'm apparently not smart enough to know my chances, so I'll ask you all, 'What are my chances?'" Sod off! Those are your chances! Now stop reminding the rest of us how mediocre we are you perfect ass! (That's why I posted this is the moody thread). I've gotten worse. Zouzax, hello! :), NUcat72 and 5 others 8
lab ratta-tat-tat Posted January 25, 2011 Posted January 25, 2011 if I see another BEEEP-ing person asking about their chances with their perfect scores I just might die. Seriously? WTF do you think your chances are? Leave us middle class average GPA or Awesome in one area, but over compensating for some deficiencies in another area alone. I have probably gotten a million times worse since this process, I recently signed up for a gmail email account so I could see (on the tab) when a new email arrives and it kind of shows up/flashes upon arrival. Pathetic, probably, but I want to be able to get my brain back the very second I hear something. NadaJ, Irishlibra and sputnik 3
Langoustine Posted January 25, 2011 Posted January 25, 2011 if I see another BEEEP-ing person asking about their chances with their perfect scores I just might die. Seriously? WTF do you think your chances are? Leave us middle class average GPA or Awesome in one area, but over compensating for some deficiencies in another area alone. I have probably gotten a million times worse since this process, I recently signed up for a gmail email account so I could see (on the tab) when a new email arrives and it kind of shows up/flashes upon arrival. Pathetic, probably, but I want to be able to get my brain back the very second I hear something. HAHAHAHA I know right? Goddamn! There was a funny post on the Results page a couple days ago: MIT, Computer Science (F11), GRE 900Q/900V, 150 publications, I am 16 yrs old Yes I leave my gmail account open in a tab and check every 10 minutes or so. I am going crazy!! Obvs I am up and it is 1:44 am. sputnik and cogscipixie 2
A. sesquipedale Posted January 25, 2011 Posted January 25, 2011 Yeah. My moodiness is reaching all time highs now. People from my program at school are starting to get acceptances. Granted, I didn't apply to any of the schools they have, but it's pissing me off. I have yet to hear a damn thing from anyone. I'd almost take a rejection just to hear something! Plus, I'm getting sick of reading posts on the board that go something like, "Hi Everyone! I am perfect in every way! I have a perfect GPA and a perfect GRE and the perfect professor at the perfect uni is perfectly in love with me! And even though I'm so perfectly perfect, I'm apparently not smart enough to know my chances, so I'll ask you all, 'What are my chances?'" Sod off! Those are your chances! Now stop reminding the rest of us how mediocre we are you perfect ass! (That's why I posted this is the moody thread). I've gotten worse. awesome post, I feel the same sometimes!
fbh Posted January 25, 2011 Posted January 25, 2011 If you guys are on Firefox, you should add the WebMail add-on. I use it to show me when I have new email and it sits in the corner by the loading bar or by the navigation bar, so it doesn't take up any room. I added a .wav file sound that makes me happy so I get doubly excited when I get a new email and I don't have to be at my computer to notice that I have a new email. Don't do it if you get spam/junk to that inbox though, otherwise it will make you more moody. I set up my gmail so that messages from certain people/companies don't show up read so that I don't have to get excited over nothing and I have other inboxes for other business.
gradstudent84 Posted January 26, 2011 Posted January 26, 2011 Plus, I'm getting sick of reading posts on the board that go something like, "Hi Everyone! I am perfect in every way! I have a perfect GPA and a perfect GRE and the perfect professor at the perfect uni is perfectly in love with me! And even though I'm so perfectly perfect, I'm apparently not smart enough to know my chances, so I'll ask you all, 'What are my chances?'" I'm sick of this too. I get enough of this at school. sputnik 1
green8715 Posted January 26, 2011 Posted January 26, 2011 I realized 2 years ago that my job it is in no way how I want to spend my future and find that things which used to be slightly annoying now seem like insurmountable tasks I don't have the patience to deal with. however, since my 1 acceptance I have become *slightly* better, and instead try to spend my energy holding back from telling off all of my obnoxious coworkers
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