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My NYU rejection was within the MA acceptance email. "Your application was reviewed by the doctoral program of your choice. While the department was not able to offer you admission to the Ph.D. program, we very much hope you will accept our offer to join the master's program, an intellectually rigorous program that is one of the most prestigious of its kind."

Now Northeastern and Irvine have "committee review" statuses. So that's good. Of course, NYU still says "under review" too. I don't know how to decipher all of this.

Next exit

I got an email asking for a phone interview the week of Christmas. I have no idea why. So I said I was available after a certain time Christmas Eve Eve. Time zone differences make everything difficult, but it wasn't super late or anything (I think it made it 4 or 5 where she was). Anyway, she said she would call me then. So I got all my documents straight, reread my statement, came up with questions, had bullet points on major papers, all that jazz. I dressed up, had tea, psyched myself up with power posing and everything. 10 minutes before the interview time I get an email. Because I didn't email the professor a final confirmation, she assumed I was unavailable and didn't extend her babysitter's hours. She said she would set up another interview after the holidays. Well, it's February 15 and I haven't heard anything from the university. Safe to say I messed up. Majorly.

Coffee. Glazed doughnuts. Bacon. Chocolate cake. Strawberry ice cream. Mini golf.

Ughhh. I went to so many meetings about the graduate school process while an undergrad, as well as during my gap years. Almost everything has so far been wrong. I went out to snag a bunch of cold-weather clothes last month. In LA, we get in like 10 total coats in October. They're usually gone by December. So I was definitely not waiting until I got an invite to some place freezing to go out and buy one. It was hard enough as-is to find one in mid-January. I also bought snow boots and a LOT of sweaters and tights and scarves. And some cute gloves. But now people are saying that even if they want to interview me, they aren't going to fly me across the country to do it. So why did I spend SO much on boots and a coat? What if I'm at Irvine? I don't need snow boots! Not exactly driving off to Big Bear on weekends. Ughhhhh. And my first official email is a rejection??? How's that for setting the tone??! Not to mention I've been depressed and anxious and suffering from panic attacks for going on a year and I've done nothing about it. I had everything planned out. When would be the best time to go on new meds so that the transition phase wouldn't affect interviews. But I haven't even made a doctor's appointment. Just give me my old Lexapro script! 2016 was the worst year imaginable. (Yeah, people say that, but for me there was death and trauma and abuse and all sorts of shit.) 2017 HAS to be the year when my life changes. I need to have a purpose again. This is my purpose. But all I have right now is a rejection. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

GRE Prep: $129 (2 book sets) GRE: $205 Application fees: $1010 (Got one school waived...and then another charged me twice!) GRE Scores: $297 Transcripts: FREEEE (So glad my undergrad sends them out for free. One school DID try to charge me $65 to upload my transcript! But I typed it all by hand, including things from high school it insisted upon, which made it free.) Total: $1641

Thank you. I emailed the coordinator to follow up. I know that they were shipped on the 7th. 8 days seems a long time to me, but it is a high-volume mail month. Maybe it will arrive today. Or maybe it already arrived and they are slow to update the system. My current fear is that my status will just change from "awaiting documents" to "rejected."

School: NYUArea/Degree: Social Psych PhDRationalization: None given. Comment: I thought I really had an in. One of the professor's I've worked with writes almost all her papers with one of the 3 professors I applied to. It was tied for my #1 choice and it's the first I've heard from ANY school. Is this a sign of things to come? Am I not getting in anywhere???? Also, googled the master's program cost. $42k a year, not including living in NYC!Coping tactics: I think I might hit the after V-day candy sales.

"We regret to add that there are no fellowships or scholarships available to you through the Graduate School or your program." Yeah. That is not happening. I was already on edge about being accepted to the PhD program and having to take out loans to live in NYC. So I cannot begin to comprehend the debt that the Masters would put me in.

I just got that same email. I didn't read it well and started celebrating (reiterating: have not slept). Then I saw "masters" Well...it's a start? Except I could never afford it...

UCI is the school that kept emailing me about my transcripts. First in December and then 2 weeks ago. I resent them (apparently I had the address wrong). They're still listed as not received, so I have no status update.

Hi, just joining in on this panic fest. I applied to 12 schools. I've had semi-correspondences with three: - I heard from one asking me to resend my transcripts...twice. But that's good? That means they're still looking at me? - I heard from one trying to schedule a phone interview two days before Christmas (I was busy, said they'd contact me at another time to set up a phone interview...and never did...so I assume that's out). - I heard from a professor at a different campus who was not in my area of interest. She claimed the professor I want to work with is not taking graduate students, but she is. I declined her, politely. But the professor I want's website still says "I am recruiting graduate students to begin Fall, 2017." I checked the acceptances board and no one has posted about visits or acceptances yet, but five have posts about phone/skype interviews and two have rejections. It's 7am. I didn't sleep because I was suddenly overcome with panic. But I can see I'm not alone.