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Thank you so much for your response! I really appreciate it. I wasn't sure if I am in a toxic environment or not because I technically am not a student anymore and should be held to a higher standard, but I really still feel very inexperienced because to me this is still a new lab environment. I have had multiple lab experiences before and was never in this kind of position before. If others are interested in giving me other feedback, please feel free!

God, it sounds like the lab you're working in is so toxic. As a current undergrad working in a lab, I promise you not all research labs are like this. The lab I'm in is so understanding and has never once made me feel not competent (even though I ask dumb questions sometimes and make mistakes, because humans make mistakes and we don't deserve to get yelled at for such minor things)-- I want to make it clear that I am not a research-y person by any means and while I personally don't believe I'm cut out for research, the lab I'm in has never contributed to this feeling in any way. My advice is to find a different lab (if possible) with a better, non-toxic work environment. If you still feel not cut out for research in this new environment without being yelled at or put down, I'd say it's just not for you and that's okay. But right now, any reasonable person would feel incompetent with the way that you're being treated-- it's not you, it's THEM.

SSHRC storytellers was released this week, and SSHRC post-doc was recently released, I think. PhD SSHRC has not been released, yet. 

Pfewww. That makes sense. Of course there are multiple SSHRC awards that people are hearing about. At this stage my brain has frozen and can't make logical observations LOL. I just NEED April to be over already LMAO in tears & misery.

Yes, I've not received the extranet instructions email and I assume (hope?) others have not either. Based on reading last year's thread, we should receive another email, likely next week, giving us access to the extranet, followed by yet another email notifying us that our results have been posted. However, some people last year found their results posted on the extranet before they received the notification email.

This is so true!??

The important thing to remember is that if you do get accepted, it's merit-based and you absolutely deserve it. If you're rejected, it's just luck, arbitrary, political, etc., so don't worry about it!

The important thing to remember is that if you do get accepted, it's merit-based and you absolutely deserve it. If you're rejected, it's just luck, arbitrary, political, etc., so don't worry about it!

The important thing to remember is that if you do get accepted, it's merit-based and you absolutely deserve it. If you're rejected, it's just luck, arbitrary, political, etc., so don't worry about it!

1 week and 4 days left !!! arghhhh ?

This has been the lesson throughout my PhD as well. Sometimes it ends well and sometimes you just get another shot at it. It's so hard to separate your self-worth from arbitrary accomplishments and merit scholarships though! lol

Thanks for sharing. I feel the same way. Glad to have this forum to commiserate. I'm a 4th year and going into my 5th, so either way I'm motoring along. Under promise and over deliver!

Yeah, that is the trap! It's so tempting to look for an easy fix on the inside because the internal work is much more painstaking and takes way longer! ? But what I've also learned from 6 years or so of grad school and grant apps is that pinning my self-worth on these apps is actually what is the most painstaking. Getting to a point of rather doing the internal work ?
Felt like sharing this here, sorry it's off the mark of getting our results. Been on the forum for a while and thought I would add this side-thought!

Based on my twitter creeping, CIHR CGS-Ds went out today... c'mon SSHRC!

I think we should anticipate getting another "heart attack" email to brace ourselves. ?

Mine was green too. I don't think it means anything. or could it? lol we are reading into this way too much hahaha overanalyzing everything. This is so totally normal tho :P
let's REALLY hope that doesn't happen. I read in previous year's forum that people had to wait well into May to find out about their results and I think that's just CRUEL. We're already waiting for MONTHS! We shouldn't have to wait any longer. Let's all be positive and hope we will ALL hear about our results by April 30, by 11:59  or latest May 1st. Fingers crossed for good news.
OMG, I do this too! Your sister is probably right. It's not like we could do anything about it at this point. Sometimes I feel good about it after I read it but often I find things that could be better in it, I guess it depends on my mood.
But honestly there is so many ways that the proposal could be different/better/whatever and at the end of the day, I feel like there is an element of luck involved in that it heavily depends on firstly who are the people who read your proposal and how they feel about it and secondly how you compare to the rest of the applicants in that subject. So we can never know until the results are out. I know of people who've won CGS & Vanier (which is the most competitive of them all) but were rejected from FRQSC (which is a Quebec based scholarship) and is supposed to be much less competitive than CGS and Vanier since those are federal AND applicants have to go through multiple rounds before they will be considered. There really isn't a logic....
Ugh...I just want this month to be over already. I want to wake up and the date to be April 30th. Fairy god mother, can you hear me?

Hi there! I believe that OGS results are provided through the school that you applied to. There may be an awards website for the school you applied to or just message the graduate studies office and they can give you more information. I know you said they aren't responding but maybe give them a call? At my school it is quite informal and they simply send you an email once they have the results! I do not know how this works for international students though. 
Hope this helps!

LOL at the "mini heart attack" ? which I had too btw. 3 weeks and 2 days left you all ! how are you feeling??? the wait is killing me..

For anyone still waiting to receive the notification email here's what it says in case that eases the anxiety at all
 
Information regarding your doctoral application will be uploaded toward the end of April to the SSHRC Extranet for applicants.                       
You will receive a separate system-generated notification with steps on how to activate your extranet account in order to access the information.
 
If you encounter technical issues in accessing the SSHRC Extranet for Applicants, please contact the Helpdesk at webgrants@sshrc-crsh.gc.ca.
For any other questions, do not hesitate to contact us at fellowships@sshrc-crsh.gc.ca.  
 
Sincerely,
The Research Training Portfolio
Social Sciences and Humanities Research Council
 
FYI, it had the subject line "SSHRC Doctoral Awards Results" and was from "Z-Scholarships". It went to my "promotions" folder in Gmail for some reason.

I also just had the mini-heart attack moment. Whew!?
 

I got this email too! Thanks for the mini heart attack, SSHRC

I just received the email confirming what the tweet said - end of April, via extranet.  Just receiving the email so unexpectedly almost gave me a heart attack though.  I have been able to put this out of my mind for six months, but no the anxious time starts...
 

Better luck this year!
 
Speaking of fingers being crossed, I'm doing it. I'm getting friends, family to do it too. I'm grabbing strangers off the street and crossing their fingers. Got a good feeling about this group right here.

Saw this tweet from SSHRC : 
So looks like "end of April" for results. 

I'm an international student so I'm only eligible for SSHRC (fellowship not CGS-D) and Trudeau (which I haven't applied to yet). Wishing you all the best with OGS and SSHRC! I was waitlisted for OGS during my Master's and got it after a few months so you never know!