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    Andean Pat got a reaction from music in Starting PhD Pregnant   
    Congratulations!!! I am one of those people that cheers for the coming of a new life to the world. I am not in grad school yet, but it has crossed my mind "what if I get pregnant in these months?!". Yes, I know, I am quite anxious... anyway, as you said, I would also wait until the third month. Now, since this would be in July, it's probably best to wait until you get to your school (congrats on this as well, btw) to talk to your advisor face-to-face. It seems your dates fit very well your academic calendar and you have it quite figure it out, with the help and the daycare. Probably the worse months will be in the Spring, when the baby is very small, and you'll probably want to be with him/her all the time. 
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from lyonessrampant in Losing it   
    I'm really sorry to read this!
     
    I second both responses: your health comes first. Do not quit counselling, remember it is a process and it needs time. You need to think about several things and you need someone to guide you in doing that and not lose it. From what you've said, you have to answer big questions and make big decisions, like what do you want? Do you want to stay? Then switch advisors. do you want to leave? Then, what type of work do you want?
     
    You have gone through these questions because you applied to grad school and you wrote a SOP. So go back to that and re read it. Do you still want it? 
     
    Grad school is not about abuses and horrible life. Life is about being happy and doing what you love. It turns my stomach when I read in these forums that people and miserable and "well, this is what I signed up for". NO!!!! You did not signed up for being mistreated. If a professor does not want to teach you, then bye bye, pick another one. You cannot sustain this mental situation for five years. No one can, and no one should. 
     
    All my strength from here, hope you get better and you can solve these problems, honestly! Mwaaaa
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from Porshyen in Losing it   
    I'm really sorry to read this!
     
    I second both responses: your health comes first. Do not quit counselling, remember it is a process and it needs time. You need to think about several things and you need someone to guide you in doing that and not lose it. From what you've said, you have to answer big questions and make big decisions, like what do you want? Do you want to stay? Then switch advisors. do you want to leave? Then, what type of work do you want?
     
    You have gone through these questions because you applied to grad school and you wrote a SOP. So go back to that and re read it. Do you still want it? 
     
    Grad school is not about abuses and horrible life. Life is about being happy and doing what you love. It turns my stomach when I read in these forums that people and miserable and "well, this is what I signed up for". NO!!!! You did not signed up for being mistreated. If a professor does not want to teach you, then bye bye, pick another one. You cannot sustain this mental situation for five years. No one can, and no one should. 
     
    All my strength from here, hope you get better and you can solve these problems, honestly! Mwaaaa
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from ratlab in Losing it   
    I'm really sorry to read this!
     
    I second both responses: your health comes first. Do not quit counselling, remember it is a process and it needs time. You need to think about several things and you need someone to guide you in doing that and not lose it. From what you've said, you have to answer big questions and make big decisions, like what do you want? Do you want to stay? Then switch advisors. do you want to leave? Then, what type of work do you want?
     
    You have gone through these questions because you applied to grad school and you wrote a SOP. So go back to that and re read it. Do you still want it? 
     
    Grad school is not about abuses and horrible life. Life is about being happy and doing what you love. It turns my stomach when I read in these forums that people and miserable and "well, this is what I signed up for". NO!!!! You did not signed up for being mistreated. If a professor does not want to teach you, then bye bye, pick another one. You cannot sustain this mental situation for five years. No one can, and no one should. 
     
    All my strength from here, hope you get better and you can solve these problems, honestly! Mwaaaa
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from Pretty_Penny in Losing it   
    I'm really sorry to read this!
     
    I second both responses: your health comes first. Do not quit counselling, remember it is a process and it needs time. You need to think about several things and you need someone to guide you in doing that and not lose it. From what you've said, you have to answer big questions and make big decisions, like what do you want? Do you want to stay? Then switch advisors. do you want to leave? Then, what type of work do you want?
     
    You have gone through these questions because you applied to grad school and you wrote a SOP. So go back to that and re read it. Do you still want it? 
     
    Grad school is not about abuses and horrible life. Life is about being happy and doing what you love. It turns my stomach when I read in these forums that people and miserable and "well, this is what I signed up for". NO!!!! You did not signed up for being mistreated. If a professor does not want to teach you, then bye bye, pick another one. You cannot sustain this mental situation for five years. No one can, and no one should. 
     
    All my strength from here, hope you get better and you can solve these problems, honestly! Mwaaaa
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    Andean Pat reacted to Kamisha in hating grad school   
    I’m sorry that you are having such a bad experience. I obviously don’t know you, but I’m going to try to give you my honest impressions of why these things might be happening based on what I’ve observed of your communications in this discussion post. I am not a psychologist, so take it for what you will. I will say that there are a couple of people in my department who are going through similar problems and I’m seeing a similar trend. 
     
    The first thing that stands out to me is your statement that your negativity is not a choice. Truth be told, negativity is always a choice. It’s hard to battle through it and sometimes you just have to have negative days, but a positive attitude will do wonders for you. If you genuinely feel like you can’t control it, that is a problem in academia--not because your problems are your fault, but because personal negativity shines through in every situation and, for many people, is a deterrent. It is likely that your professors and colleagues see this negativity and, as a result, take issue with you. It’s also likely that you don’t recognize that your negativity is coming out. A girl in my problem can’t seem to understand why no one (faculty and students alike) have bonded with her or taken an interest in her, despite the fact that she is very intelligent, but the faculty talk about her negative attitude behind her back and it’s going to affect her in more ways than class discomfort; she will have a hard time getting letters of recommendation, etc. Again, I say this not to come down on you, but to try and allow you to see what it is looking like from an outsider’s perspective. My advice would be to go to your DGS or a faculty member or even another and ask them to genuinely tell you how you come off in the department and how to improve upon it. 
     
    Truthfully, the comments on this board responding to you have been a little harsh and I realize that you’ve been put on the defensive. That being said, your comments were equally harsh and brutal. You are asking people you don’t know to take an interest in your life. When they respond negatively, it is hurtful; but try to think about why they are responding negatively: is it something in your tone? Is it your attitude toward them? 
     
    For me, your tone from the very first post (and remember, I recognize that I don’t know you on a personal level; this is purely perception) came off as very self-depricating, defensive, and self-entitled. If you want to garner sympathy, you need to cultivate a tone worthy of sympathy. I’m going to point out a few lines that may have contributed to the poster's negative perception of you: 
    “...m cohort is kind of crappy to me,” “both professors seem to have something against me,” “both of these professors had clear favorites,” “both of these professors appeared to be sexist,” your narration about the male student who came into your class, "I get so upset about it and feel like there's no point... I might as well run away, get a job (seriously, even in retail they treat you better than this) and read on my own. The terrible thing is that I had a pretty crappy life before this" ​I’m not invaliding any of your experiences in this post, but the way in which you present your story makes it sound as though you feel like you are an innocent victim in all of this and that you are entitled to better treatment. That may be, but there is no evidence here of internal reflection. All of the blame is placed outward and little reflection is given as to why people might feel the need to treat you this way. 
     
    In your other posts (wherein you obviously felt as though you were being attacked) you were extremely sarcastic and came off as very bitter. Even though I disagreed with the comments others were making to you, I found myself feeling absolutely no sympathy for you because the way you frame things makes you sound very petulant and unpleasant: 
    "So I guess as long as I have been unhappy before, I must be unable to perceive anything normally. Maybe I'm also getting paid $5000/month and my attitude is making it seem like less? Maybe the reason crappy things happen to me all the time is people like you, who blame me whenever I suffer and who think that the fact that I am suffering is evidence that I'm full of s***." Your response was worse in tone and cruelty than the original response.
    She is generally pretentious and mean to people all around. She particularly makes fun of one guy's english (he's not a native speaker, and neither is she, but her english is better) and really made him feel bad for a while. For some reason people seem to like her a lot despite her weird behavior. (I think part of it is that she is really good at acting. e.g. she laughs 'genuinely' at jokes she doesn't get or find funny.) This post makes you sound petty, jealous, insecure, and cruel. I am not saying you ARE these things; I’m saying that is how it comes off. 
    "She also tried to correct my english in front of a professor one time, which was weird because she's not a native speaker and I am (and not surprisingly, her 'correction' was wrong)." This post sounds not only ethnocentric and somewhat condescending, it again makes you seem insecure and angry.
    "I haven't talked to the other girls about sexism, so I'm not sure what they think. What I can say is that most of the girls don't talk much during class. I talked more than the others and as far as I can tell, got punished for it. The guy who came in an hour late (an hour! not 30mins) is in my cohort, so he actually doesn't have more experience than me. I really don't know how he could have had fabulous insights on a book he hadn't even begun to read." Again, this feels like a lot of displacing guilt and blame. Rather than saying “I was punished for talking” and making it sound you were a victim, take responsibility for talking in class. That can be a disruption. Also, it really feels like you are devaluing your male peer’s intelligence here. Just he was late doesn’t mean he hadn’t read and, even if he hadn’t, you shouldn’t be so concerned about him. Also, just because someone doesn’t have more experience than you doesn’t mean that they aren’t able to offer valuable insights. 
    Yeah, we can still use the libraries, but I don't think that justifies $2000. Again, the cynicism here is off-putting. 
    “What it amounts to is that I had a really horrible childhood which was mainly the fault of my parents, and as a result I have problems with almost every other kind of interaction in my life. But I've tried so hard to get help, and all I get is hurt worse. For example, a few years ago I saw a psychotherapist who started to help me, I got really attached to him and then he cut me off because there was a session limit at my university. I'm still, years later, dealing with feelings of abandonment and worthlessness because of him." I’m sorry that you had a miserable childhood. You anger toward your parents is likely justified. That being said, you are blaming your therapist here for doing their job and meeting their professional requirements rather than focusing on the fact that you are unable to accept the professional boundaries. You say that you are still “dealing with feelings of abandonment and worthlessness because of him.” It’s not his fault; he is a therapist and was doing his job. He can’t continue to treat you always when the university has a limit. Again, this is displacing blame and your tone is very harsh and condemning. It doesn’t garner sympathy. 
    "If it's not a contest, why are you telling me what happened to you? Why do you think I would care? It seems like you're saying that your difficult childhood justifies your unkindness to me. It doesn’t." Quite honestly, this is hypocritical and flat out mean. You are asking a group of strangers you don’t know to give you insight and advice about your life and are claiming that you are justified in certain behaviors because of your negative life experiences. How, then, do you possibly justify a cruel response like this? I lost all sympathy for you after reading this line.
    "You're known to come off as an asshole? Maybe it's becaue you are an asshole... just a thought worth considering." Wow. This is very harsh? Have you ever wondered if people think that you come off as an asshole? After reading this, you definitely did to me. Maybe you should also take this comment as a “thought worth considering?"
    "I regret posting here. You know how I said that seeking help always comes back to bite me? I guess this is yet another example of it. I was only asking for help. Like it or not, you made me feel worse. There is no good outcome here. Do you really enjoy doing this to people?" Again, condescending and self-depricating. How do you expect others to treat you kindly when you come at them with negativity and cruelty?
     
    Like I said, I don’t know you personally and can’t effectively comment on your situation. I can, however, say this: if the attitude you put forth daily (even subconsciously) is what it appears to be from this discussion board, I can honestly understand why you aren’t having a lot of professional and personal success in your program. Try to consciously think about your tone and attitude and worry yourself less with the actions and opinions of others. If you feel like you can’t do that, it may be in your best interest to leave academia--a field which is entirely dependent upon having thick skin and persevering despite terrible odds and biases.
     
    I wish you the best of luck and hope that you read this message knowing that the intention here is to help and shed light, not attack or criticize. 
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from SNPCracklePop in Losing it   
    I'm really sorry to read this!
     
    I second both responses: your health comes first. Do not quit counselling, remember it is a process and it needs time. You need to think about several things and you need someone to guide you in doing that and not lose it. From what you've said, you have to answer big questions and make big decisions, like what do you want? Do you want to stay? Then switch advisors. do you want to leave? Then, what type of work do you want?
     
    You have gone through these questions because you applied to grad school and you wrote a SOP. So go back to that and re read it. Do you still want it? 
     
    Grad school is not about abuses and horrible life. Life is about being happy and doing what you love. It turns my stomach when I read in these forums that people and miserable and "well, this is what I signed up for". NO!!!! You did not signed up for being mistreated. If a professor does not want to teach you, then bye bye, pick another one. You cannot sustain this mental situation for five years. No one can, and no one should. 
     
    All my strength from here, hope you get better and you can solve these problems, honestly! Mwaaaa
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from oseirus in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    To everyone worried about interviews:
     
    I had several pre-admission phone/skype interviews and only one "real" admission interview via skype with three professors. At the time of the interview, my mother was having an emergency surgery. At exactly the same time. I succeeded, and got an offer for that school. If I could survive that stress, anyone can do it!!!! 
     
    In short: all the best to you! Be yourselves, and everything will just flow. 
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    Andean Pat reacted to angelayar in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    Look, the reference to office "ladies" as far as I'm concerned, harks back to a different era and I found it offensive. Perhaps the other bit was not intended to make the point I suggested. That's ok. But referring to administrative staff as office "ladies" is pretty clearly not ok.
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    Andean Pat reacted to gsc in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    I'm not quite sure that was the implication, nor the point. 
     
    I think she's cautioning you to remember that although the DGS might come in on a Saturday to get her own work done, anything administrative or office related is getting done Monday through Friday, 8am to 5pm. It's not a matter of someone working harder than someone else; academic schedules are more flexible.
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from levoyous in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    I remember I had a little notepad to write down questions and then choose when to ask. I don't remember all of them but I do recall asking what happens next, which is enlightening. My interview was VERY intellectual, they asked about how I thought the work of X had influence my work, or how I understood Y since I mentioned it several times in my writing sample. After being asked those kinds of questions, I was exhausted! 
     
    What I can say is the following: do not ask questions you can find in the website, in the handbook, or which another grad student can answer. I cannot stress this enough. 
     
    All the best for everyone!!!
     
    AP
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    Andean Pat reacted to catsandscarves in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    So much clarification to things that I bet we all assumed ha!.... of course they are only interviewing people they are seriously considering extending offers to...I guess what I got from your post is that they might do them at different times
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    Andean Pat reacted to levoyous in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    I followed the general consensus on here that you shouldn't contact POIs after late October-early November, but I wonder if professors themselves see it that way. They aren't looking at applications until January in most cases, and some really seem to expect you to have gotten in touch in advance so that they remember to look for your application. (Most of my applications asked specifically which professors I had contacted.) I still think it feels weird to reach out after the app is submitted, but I wonder if there's some cases where you should still try to make contact if you haven't (ie, maybe, like me, you realized late in the game that a certain program would be a great fit, and really want to go there).
     
    PS. I still think it's really weird for an adcomm to wonder about your "seriousness" just because you didn't get in touch outside the application. What the hell?
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from annie_lull in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    To everyone worried about interviews:
     
    I had several pre-admission phone/skype interviews and only one "real" admission interview via skype with three professors. At the time of the interview, my mother was having an emergency surgery. At exactly the same time. I succeeded, and got an offer for that school. If I could survive that stress, anyone can do it!!!! 
     
    In short: all the best to you! Be yourselves, and everything will just flow. 
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from AuldReekie in What surprised you the most going through this whole process?   
    hi Tup!
     
    I emailed them telling about my interests and how they would fit would theirs. I had three pre-application interviews: one skype, one phone, and one live over a cup of coffee (this POI happened to be in Argentina when I contacted him, of course, I knew that ). Another one responded such a detailed e-mail that we didn't need the interview (although he offered to have one). Of course, these were four out of ammm... probably ten POIs I contacted. 
     
    See you in Vegas! jajajaja
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from kdavid in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    To everyone worried about interviews:
     
    I had several pre-admission phone/skype interviews and only one "real" admission interview via skype with three professors. At the time of the interview, my mother was having an emergency surgery. At exactly the same time. I succeeded, and got an offer for that school. If I could survive that stress, anyone can do it!!!! 
     
    In short: all the best to you! Be yourselves, and everything will just flow. 
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from djp2 in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    To everyone worried about interviews:
     
    I had several pre-admission phone/skype interviews and only one "real" admission interview via skype with three professors. At the time of the interview, my mother was having an emergency surgery. At exactly the same time. I succeeded, and got an offer for that school. If I could survive that stress, anyone can do it!!!! 
     
    In short: all the best to you! Be yourselves, and everything will just flow. 
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from Brisingamen in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    To everyone worried about interviews:
     
    I had several pre-admission phone/skype interviews and only one "real" admission interview via skype with three professors. At the time of the interview, my mother was having an emergency surgery. At exactly the same time. I succeeded, and got an offer for that school. If I could survive that stress, anyone can do it!!!! 
     
    In short: all the best to you! Be yourselves, and everything will just flow. 
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    Andean Pat reacted to nohika in Starting over in a new place....   
    I think you're kind of stuck in the land of teenagers, where everything that happens to you is the absolute Worst and no one can Possibly Understand How You're Feeling. The rampant jealousy is part of that too. But guess what - you're going to have to learn to deal with it. You'll run into a lot of people that have what you want, and you need to be able to deal with it like a functional human being.
     
    And Pinkster, one of the best adoptive parents I know was a single mother (who was, incidentally, a social worker). 
     
    Going to graduate school to find a sense of purpose is not going to help. In fact, it will probably make it worse.
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    Andean Pat reacted to aberrant in What about sports?   
    Did not watch the draw, but know the results (no time for watching the draw).
     
    Brazil, Mexico; Spain, Netherlands; Colombia, Japan; Italy, England; France, Switzerland; Argentina, Bosnia-Herzegovina; Germany, Portugal; Belgium, Russia
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from Monochrome Spring in What surprised you the most going through this whole process?   
    I was surprised that three POIs interviewed me via skype/phone before the application process. Ath the beginning I thought it was the norm, then I found out it was not that usual.
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    Andean Pat reacted to New England Nat in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    BTW, since I've enjoyed being part of this community for a number of years now I'd just like to celebrate.
     
    As of this morning when my dissertation prospectus was signed off... i'm officially ABD.  Yay.
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    Andean Pat got a reaction from telkanuru in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    I complete agree that is personal, unique, and like a fingerprint. However, I understand your concern because I had the same one. I needed to actually see a SOP in order to mentally understand what to write in mine. A grad student shared this resource with me. It is a SOP from someone admitted to Berkeley commented by a professor so that you understand why it is a good SOP (and, hence, how you can make yours equally successful). 
     
    Hope it helps!
     
    AP
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    Andean Pat reacted to New England Nat in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    I just wanted to let people know i'm back for the season.  I have not been reading for a few months.  For those of you who don't know me I'm a third year at Princeton and I field a fair number of PMs but I have to apologize to the person who was trying to contact me last month when Life Happened .
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    Andean Pat reacted to TMP in Fall 2014 Applicants   
    AFB!  You're BACK!!!!
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