Dating is so complicated, you always have to worry about "will they call?" "do I text them first? If I text first will I come off as annoying?" I can't go on dates and not jump immediately to our beautiful wedding pictures and what our kids will look like. I have done it with every single relationship and date I have been on. My best friend just got out of a 3 year relationship and right now she is looking to "casually date" I had no idea what that was until she explained it. I don't "casually date" to me the point of dating is to find someone you love and marry them and have babies as quickly as possible. My ex and I (I reference him a lot sorry) we casually dated at first I guess but as soon as things turned sexual I needed a title, I never want to be sleeping with someone and not mean something to them. I have in the past but I personally don't do well with hookups, I don't know how to not be emotionally attached and then afterward I feel like crap about myself. It just isn't for me.
In the end for me I would rather it happen now so it is one less thing I have to stress about. I think it is cool that people are so happy and content being single, for me it just makes me feel less than people in relationships. It is like they have something I don't and despite how hard I try to get into a relationship and adjust myself into a person that a guy would love and want to spend their life with I still can't get it, it is never good enough. I can't explain it but to me single people are less than people in relationships (I can only speak for myself being less than people in relationships). I worry about finding someone pretty much everyday, because I don't meet a lot of people in my day to day life, I am 23 most people my age are in serious relationships or getting engaged (this summer there are literally at least 6 weddings of people I graduated with) or pregnant and then married. That is just important to me, I can't see being fully happy if I am not married with kids. My career is important too but ever since I was like 18 I knew school would always be available but having babies wouldn't. I have my own personal issues that make it much harder to find someone in my opinion though. Anyways I am for sure going to grad school in the Fall and that means living on my own and stuff and so hopefully that helps me to mature as a person, and I hope I learn more about myself. I couldn't tell you one thing that I enjoy doing that I didn't get from a person I dated :/ it is pretty sad I guess.