LittleDarlings
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Well the last grade finally came in.. I finished with a 3.7. I am pretty happy with that I think.
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Celebrating my birthday in my college town if I don't get hit on tonight this night is going to genuinely be a waste
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I'm turning 24 tomorrow, the most depressing thing that could ever happen to me.
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24 is NOT old. i'm about to turn 25 in february and i thought that'd be the end of it. little did i realize how young we still really are. what do you mean you're getting old with "nothing to show for"? you're working towards your education and career, aren't you? that's way better off than a lot of 24 year olds I know.
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I just turned 25 in September, and I've actually been severely depressed because of it. My friends and family laugh because they think I'm joking when I say I'm suffering from a "quarter-life crisis", but it's a real thing. If I were close to a career or anything truly "attainable", it wouldn't be so bad. Instead, I'm finishing up a MA in something I'm not even sure I want to continue doing. My two career path choices (PhD or MD) require years of ti...
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(ack, deleted part of my comment) ...time and lots of thought, yet I feel too "old" to choose either of them. I've even considered applying for a 2-year SLP program just because I feel like that's how much time I have left to get into a career. If it starts to make you feel depressed, get help. Don't let it drag you down or severely influence your choices or your schooling like I've done. It's no good feeling this way.
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And.... at least offer productive advice
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So funny I used to love love love Fox News, since I have been in my program I just feel sick when I watch it. It makes me feel so stupid and angry.
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I hate how I would rather stay in my newly spotless apartment than go out to my work holiday party
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Turned in my last final, took my research methods test (hope I tested out but if not it's ok I guess) now I am about go schedule some dates woo!!!!
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Hell yeah!! To relax I am a huge wine fan now. I usually drink and watch Netflix or go to sleep. Or text someone to see if they will take me out (but that has it's own stressful factors).
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I need a break I am so tired of school and papers and answering the same questions 50 times for 4 different classes.
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I feel stupid sometimes telling her everything, or like I will offend her. She kind of has the life that I wanted (want) she got married super young, she had kids super young, she is still married, she even has the career that I am going to school for. I don't want to offend her or for her to think I am weird or something you know? Which I know she won't because it is her job to not be judgmental. I just worry sometimes and feel like I can't tell her everything because I have done stuff that I feel embarrassed about and I have feelings that make me embarrassed so she might really feel like "what is wrong with this girl?" I moved so I have the same therapist from back home and only see her once a month a need to get one out here.
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My therapist has suggested an antidepressant. I decided against it but I think I definitely need to go to therapy more regularly and try to be 100% honest with my therapist.
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Ok I can do that. I know I still have to put myself in uncomfortable positions with people and I can I just don't think she is the one to do that with.
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I really agree and think about this a lot. Don't get me wrong I am totally focused on school right now, it is the biggest thing that I am doing it is taking all of my time and energy and in all honesty I don't have time to go out on dates at this moment because of finals and papers and all that fun stuff. I really do value my education and my program and I enjoy it. In all honesty I do not know that once I get into that relationship that I want that I won't come back and complain about not getting to spend the time with them or whatever other issues could arise. I just always figured that once it happened I could handle anything else. I can fix whatever goes wrong I just need it to happen for me. I am taking the advice, I mean I am trying to work through this, I am trying to put myself in situations with people in relationships and dating (that is pretty much everyone in my program except for me lol) I am trying. It is just hard. I don't think I am depressed, not enough to like get help for it. I just have up and down points. Sometimes I can step back and say "ok you have accomplished so much with regard to school, the relationship will happen when it happens, when it is supposed to" and I can be ok with that other times I am desperately just texting anyone and tinder matching anyone (lol) who is into me and will go out with me and could potentially date me. It is very up and down for me. Like when I initially wrote the post I was like angry and annoyed, and my feelings were hurt, I was sad. I read all the responses and took some time away and came back and posted and I have done that a few times. It is just up and down I can't describe it.
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This part is kind of confusing to me... I know for 100% fact that a relationship will make me happy. I just know it. That is really the only thing that is missing in my life at this point. I have everything else together, I mean for the most part. I don't have a job yet but that is why I'm in school. I just feel like post graduation I will have it all but if I don't have a relationship I will not have anything. Does that make sense? Anyways I went to lunch with this girl recently and got to know more about her... Is it possible to just not like people because you just don't like them much? I mean I don't think I dislike her necessarily but I just can tell that she isn't someone I would try to be friends with outside of school. I think that I can manage while in school but we have no real common interests. My views about life and what life should be are totally different than her's. I can get along with her and be civil but yeah. I think I can manage being friends with other married people I guess... they aren't my first pick in friends or anything but if I have to be in contact with them I guess I can.
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I don't know how people with kids do grad school, I can't even make time to clean my apartment and pack a lunch between all these papers.
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Oh it totally sucks sometimes. Any parent who says differently is buying in to the guilty feeling we get from being human. Kids are difficult, but I don't regret having my daughter. Luckily I'm a young mom so my entire college career I've been a parent--I don't know anything else. I wouldn't dream of having a child while in grad school without a really supportive partner.
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I wish I didn't live up North... I hate the snow and I just want to hang out with people who have awesome accents.
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I gave all of my LOR writers a gift card to starbucks and a thank you card that I wrote specifically to them.
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In my SOP I mention seeking therapy for low self esteem and how I still work towards that, and then tied it back into how it has helped me and how I could help other people in that position.
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Over half way through the semester! I am in love with my program
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I am having a super hard time with this, lately I have tried to like talk to her more.. well not really talk to her but like if she is at my table and someone else brings up something and she talks about her husband I try not to like... pull out my phone lol. I try to listen and to check my feelings. I still am having a hard time with it, even the people in my class I consider my friends who I really enjoy hanging out with are starting to talk about the new people they are dating, or their relationships. I hate to be one of those "one uppers" lol because I have the tendency to do that, I try to say like top it. I am getting better with that too I think. I just can't focus, like I don't know what to say without feeling stupid. I feel like it just shows through me, like I try to laugh it off or make jokes. I mean how do I have these conversations, it is so embarrassing to me. What about when people ask about my past relationships? Like it is just embarrassing to talk about all of it. I need to just get into a relationship and this whole thing would be solved in all honesty. I am really trying though with this whole thing. I really want to just get over it, so I am trying to sit through the stories and be supportive and if they ask for advice, I actually try to give decent advice because I know eventually that is going to be my job you know?
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Question, as grad students do you look for professors who are "easy" or more challenging to get more "bang for your buck"?
I am so glad the first semester is over!
